Overthinking (Raw Demo Version) Lyrics

I don't know how to explain what's going on inside of me

I just know that something's wrong

I don't know how to explain the darkness that's guiding me

Can't resist so go along

Seems like I'm always in the place that I got to be

Except for when I don't belong

Thoughts race from overthinking and I pace constantly

I can't keep this up for long

You got questions, I got answers

Except they're dead inside my brain like cancer

Trapped inside myself like I'm a maze, I can't

For the life of me, figure out this life I'm after

I've never been real brave my weak mind

Controls how I behave and how I speak, I feel fine

No, I don't, but I don't want to be a burden

Me, I'm Tyler Durden

One minute I'm me, one minute I'm you

And I can never get a word in

Nobody cares to listen, they only pretend to

And when they share their wisdom, they often offend you

A bad egg who never paid attention in school

Just your average student pre-approved for mental issues

Had ADHD since I was the age of two

Not to mention depression and anxiety to boot

And everybody wonders why I chose heroin to shoot

I didn't it chose me because I allowed it and that's truth

Was told I could be anything I put my mind to

But it's a struggle when you'll settle to be anything but you

Call me Colonel Mustard cause I didn't have a clue

I found joy in a pill, 30mil, a pretty blue

Blew the courage up my nose through a plain old dollar bill

In the end it stole my soul, search for peace to make me whole

Fell in love with opiates, you all don't even know me yet

Is he alive, I hope he is, he'll never know how dope he is

A tale of modern tragedy, and here's the rope he did it with

Tied it off, blasted off, but what about his kids and shit

Good riddance bitch, this is it

Found lying in his piss and shit

Choking on his puke and spit

Soaking in on his new kicks

Then he's hit with the NARCAN, which sparked his heart to start

And he nearly exploded with adrenaline, the way a star can, from afar

And you should be praying on that same star

Thanking GOD, you're even alive, damn

I don't know how to explain what's going on inside of me

I just know that something's wrong

I don't know how to explain the darkness that's guiding me

Can't resist so go along

Seems like I'm always in the place that I got to be

Except for when I don't belong

Thought's race from overthinking and I pace constantly

I can't keep this up for long

Can't stop talking to myself, did I say that out loud

Can't keep up with my thoughts, they just circle around

I get no peace when I'm awake, I fall asleep and drown

In a sea of nightmares that keep pulling me down

Until I wake up, choking, sweating bullets, I can't do this

Got no other choice but push through this

Rush I'm fluent with, disgust with who I am

Fucked up in the head just must be who I am

Genetically, set to be, mentally empty

Can't let it get to me, maybe it's meant to be

To live where the rent is free

Arguing with myself, and everybody else

I pretend that they're dead to me

So sick and tired of the demons inside of me

Everywhere I go the insanity follows me

Get inside my brain like some kind of lobotomy

Get me talking crazy, like it's the voices it got to be

Doc up the meds, I'm going crazy again

Because this time, I'm thinking about killing family and friends

Kill my pregnant sister before her family even begins

You're sick, that wasn't me that was the voices in my head

Ya see, mental health is finicky, I'm on the edge like skaters be

What has gotten into me, I'm losing it like baby teeth

Foaming like a rabid beast, alone in my macabre deeds

And the source of all the craziness for me is low self-esteem

I don't know how to explain what's going on inside of me

I just know that something's wrong

I don't know how to explain the darkness that's guiding me

Can't resist so go along

Seems like I'm always in the place that I got to be

Except for when I don't belong

Thought's race from overthinking and I pace constantly

I can't keep this up for long

Well, well, well, Timmy L, from hell I greet you

I'm the evil lurking in yourself, nice to meet you

I'm the demon feeding on your soul like a leach do

I hate it when you're happy it gets so hard to reach you

I'm here to help you make bad decisions

Give up on a higher living

Overthink until you standing there spinning

Let down, not one but three women

Put your family through hell from addictions you're living

Fuck the children, you're almost over the hill now

Time to self-care until you OD on pills now

Rest in peace Mac

We know fentanyl kills now

I've done enough I've seen enough

Don't need no more thrills now

What the fuck you mean, why you putting up a fight

Why you walking straight lines, and not staying out at night

You might be doing better, but soon you'll lose sight

Fuck it, I'll come and get you while sleep for the night

Give me your love your soul everything that makes you whole

In return, your family puts your body in a hole

Remain eternally cold, while hell be burning your soul

Decay, return you to bones, today I'll leave you alone

Until the day you fall into my zone, I'll be waiting to take you

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