Almost Lyrics

Why am I such a joke to me

Why can't I find my dopamine

Why is the hope so low for fiends

Why was I chosen to almost kill me

Why am I such a joke to me

Why can't I find my dopamine

Why is the hope so low for fiends

Why was I chosen to almost kill me

I played a pivotal part in painting pictures

Images reflecting on just how bad all my shit was

I've been a wreck, been buzzed to death on shit lists, feeling pissed off

Not interested in your perspective, mine is it, mine is it

I feel bliss and panic, consecutively shit's been frantic

No resting for me, I've been standing

My neck starts to bleed

From handling the weight on top of me

I can't live, my brain starts to bleed

I'm fading, the pain in my knees is gaining

The shame comes to me in pain

The way rain comes to me, it's reigning

Gains weight over me, it's staying

Stayed late, oversleep, stay praying

Mayday, I'm too deep, no way in or route to delay, decaying

No doubt, I'll remain impatient, my hatred will stay placating

Until the day that I can claim my space, and vacate this state of displacement

I'm racing against the stakes that keep raising with each mistake

And each day I don't make it makes the next day harder to face

I can't take it, this shit's a maze

You could say I'm lost in my ways

Why am I such a joke to me

Why can't I find my dopamine

Why is the hope so low for fiends

Why was I chosen to almost kill me

Why am I such a joke to me

Why can't I find my dopamine

Why is the hope so low for fiends

Why was I chosen to almost kill me