Okay (Raw Demo Version) Lyrics

I used to have the devil on my shoulder

Telling me to go hard

I deserve to feel okay

But now I'm getting older

Feeling more alone

Can't stop thinking about my early grave

The drugs will help me zone out

Helps me take the cold out

I deserve to feel okay

I'd love to take my girl out

Bring her the whole world out

These thoughts are keeping me restrained

I'm not okay

I don't want to be the last person I'll ever meet

Staring into eyes that are mine and see defeat

Dig into my weaknesses for leverage like a cleat

Reconfigurations tweaked for heaven like deceit

Ain't the whole point to die sinless, pure

But I destroyed myself senseless, impure

Went from sifting through the mess I left, and trying to make sense of it

To shifting the whole mess I left, and rhyming to make cents of it

Pissed and blessed, invested in, my recipe for success, and then

Wifey and I will flex on an island off Key west, I bet you

All the air in my lungs within my chest

If I leap to the next step, I'll walk the rest and still be the best

It's all my fault though, I got lost in duress

Cost me my relationship with my daughter nonetheless

I got sick of always having to prove I should be next

In line, cause as her father all I wanted was respect

I used to have the devil on my shoulder

Telling me to go hard

I deserve to feel okay

But now I'm getting older

Feeling more alone

Can't stop thinking about my early grave

The drugs will help me zone out

Helps me take the cold out

I deserve to feel okay

I'd love to take my girl out

Bring her the whole world out

These thoughts are keeping me restrained

I'm not okay

Why do I feel like damaged goods off the street

When you see me with my hood up, I'm not cold, that's just me

Isolate from all thing's life, aside from food water and weed

Ok fine and oxygen, but hey, a homey got to breathe

Other than that you can save it, there's nothing worth staying for

Wait, these words I made, and the beats that I say them for

Create these worlds of relief to release the decay I hoard

If elation were disease, I believe I'd remain uncured

I love warm embraces and hugs, that's what my kids are for

Wifey you too, no need to deal with any more whores

So close to being set, almost no need to live, it's a shame

Feel free to take me away when I reach Kurt Cobain's band's name

You can call these songs a memoir stories back from when war

Waged itself inside of me, I knew I couldn't let more

Complications rise in me, I wish I used my head more

Prayer don't work entirely, am I supposed to beg more

I used to have the devil on my shoulder

Telling me to go hard

I deserve to feel okay

But now I'm getting older

Feeling more alone

Can't stop thinking about my early grave

The drugs will help me zone out

Helps me take the cold out

I deserve to feel okay

I'd love to take my girl out

Bring her the whole world out

These thoughts are keeping me restrained

I'm not okay