Off His Meds (Raw Demo Version) Lyrics

I remember when my innocence, still did exist

Until I lost it on my adolescent journey to fit in, yea

I soon became a person who was built on impression

Desperate to let them hoodlums know that I'm always down for some mayhem

Drinking and drugging, yea, whatever it takes for you to love me

A walking cliché, Dad was tough on me, and Mommy didn't hug me

Started as a needy baby with ADHD and that led me

To teenage abortion, college dropout, failed suicide, then an H fiend

That's a long list of excess baggage sinning and living

Shit, I been giving grief to the folks who conceived me to begin with

Been making mommy sick since the womb then again as an infant

As if my flaws were parasitic and they just couldn't get rid of it

That's why

I am the psycho who lost his head

I might go off the deep end again

Lightbulb burst it's dark in my head

Crazy white boy's off his meds again

I am the psycho who lost his head

I might go off the deep end again

Lightbulb burst it's dark in my head

Crazy white boy's off his meds again

When I was young, I didn't even know at the time

That I was already a prisoner who's locked in his mind

Like an escape room but the exit here is so hard to find

I've been looking for a way to leave since ninety-nine, damn right

That's when it came to light things weren't right in my mind

That I was living with this fear inside, that haunted me the entire time

Wearing me down, tearing me down, bottling my aggression

Buried the bottle deep inside and grabbed a bottle of Perc's instead

Cause I needed drugs to survive the shitty life I had made

Living home till damn near thirty with two kids I couldn't raise

Drugs were not the problem they were more a symptom I could blame

The real problem was the mental health declining in my brain

I am the psycho who lost his head

I might go off the deep end again

Lightbulb burst it's dark in my head

Crazy white boy's off his meds again

I am the psycho who lost his head

I might go off the deep end again

Lightbulb burst it's dark in my head

Crazy white boy's off his meds again

Am I insane, is there a sufficient head medicine reminiscent

Of Sudafed, Codeine to get some rest, with a decongestant, shit

My soul does not feel tortured, I feel whole but half mes bored

With life I do need more, but I'm too scared to fail, I can't afford it

I'll admit it, I want the fame and fortune, go to fancy award shows

Announce a winner at the Grammy's, maybe snag an award or two, who knows

The first half of my life I was an average Joe, too scared to blow

With my own thoughts trying to kill me, I couldn't imagine headlining shows

When only wifey has my back, head spinning bro, you already know

I'd never be here without you, the way I see it what's mine is yours

Your all my hope, I'm just a writer, producer, and artist, no more

The rest of me is filled with joy, but off my meds I will destroy

Myself

I am the psycho who lost his head

I might go off the deep end again

Lightbulb burst it's dark in my head

Crazy white boy's off his meds again

I'm the psycho who lost his head

I might go off the deep end again

Lightbulb burst it's dark in my head

Crazy white boy's off his meds again