Dear World (Raw Demo Version) Lyrics

Leave a taste in my mouth like sour milk

From all your hateful words that occurred below the belt

I don't like the things that I heard, go fuck yourself

Admittedly, it stings but I've learned to love myself

I was down and out living dead on my feet

A walking zombie stalking diesel in Brick City streets

The corner of Chancellor and Schley is where we would meet

I'm sure my chance of dying was highly increased, geez

Chalk lines fade life can't be traced

I'm talking to God, that's different than praying

I'm talking to mom; she's telling me pay up

Live in a garage, word up to my neighbors

My whole entourage, was junkies and bangers

So, don't run your mouth, God stuck me with anger

So, when things go south, you're likely in danger

But you all got no lid, there's no way to contain me

Name me the villain, got hooked on those pills

And it made me feel real, like big shoes I was filling

Like Dark Knight I'm rising, up all night disguising

My sickness, less obvious there's demons inside me

Long sleeves in July, yellow tint in my eye

Either I'm sick or high, and when high I feel fine

But in the blink of an eye I'm reminded I'll die

If I don't get shit under control in my life

Where am I going, what am I doing

I'm off to do an awful lot of boozing

Let's face it, I'm losing life doesn't amuse me

It's colder than the drink I hold in my koozie

If life is the next step, the next step a doozie

I did too much and now I'm feeling woozy

Foot on the clutch, in neutral and I'm cruising

A Dutch, a woo blunt, just listening to music

Death is my best friend, it takes my breath away

And at the same time it clears up so much headspace

A headcase thoughts rule me, makes it hard to fool me

I've already analyzed every improbable outcome imaginable

Wormhole of worry

So much left to prove, and now I'm pushing forty

But I'm in no hurry, the end will come to me

Man, I bully death, like cool kids at a party

Completely ignore it, act like I'm all for it

And life's getting old, this tree needs a new forest

When really the reality is engorged

In my mind like a tumor of horror

Horrifically scarring prolifically jarring permanently marring

Fear missing tomorrow, your history, sorry

Our time is all borrowed, a pill I can't swallow

Can't bother to wallow, one by one we follow you

Into the hollow void hoping that God's home

Choke on my sorrow where hope don't belong

No more acts of the devil, I sawed off my horns

Flashback I'm disheveled, far off from the norm

Flipping through pics of me left on my Instagram

Picturing toothpick me flipping bricks into grams

Stack bundles ruthlessly, dipped in it, end of plan

Back to what I used to be, stripped of all dignity

Damn