impatient but patient, if that makes sense Lyrics

Will you wait for me

I don't wanna do this alone

Will you stay with me

Cuz I don't wanna cry in my room

And watch over me cuz all I do is slit my wrist until you see my bone

It's getting cold from all the blood that I'm losing

I know it sounds amusing

But it's so confusing

Cuz half of the time I don't know what I'm doing

I feel so empty and I really wanna cry

I know I'm a disgrace

I just don't know why

I'm getting tired and I know you see the scars on my face

Baggy eyelids that's some shit that you cannot replace

I wake up in the morning just to sleep all day or contemplate

About myself cuz I'm losing it but I still pretend it's fine

I even wonder why

I'm tired of this life

Every single time I was fucked over I still smiled

This shits a lot of weight

But fuck reaching out for help

I'd rather end up in a ditch and play the cards the I was dealt

I'm sick and tired of waiting cuz nothings gonna happen

So I sit back in my notes and then I get to rappin

We getting paper so I know it's meant to be

That doesn't change how I feel

I really want myself back

Don't even know how to act

It's like I put on a show

To find a kid who lost himself when he was young

I don't know where to start or how to look

He probably killed himself

Don't act like you're shook

I wrote way too many songs that they could fit in a book

I'm not even good at music I can barely make a hook

But I am trying my best

Please don't compare to the rest

I'm nothing special I just write to cope and pray I'm not next

I don't wanna be a victim but I'm exhausted

I don't know how to stop it

It happens way too often

I don't know how to stop it

When you get this message I'll probably be in a coffin

Fuck