useless thoughts Lyrics

Every night it gets hard to breath

I fantasize about everything

Reality has been hitting me

I've lost my mind, why can't you see

It's 3am and it's hard to be

Alive now cuz I'm always bleedin'

I'm sad now that's how I'm feelin'

I've tried it all but nothing is healin'

Always hated myself

Always ignored and left on the shelf

Not even my friends care about my health

Now I'm in a room, tying up my belt

Cuz I need a noose I'm tired of this hell

Now it's the devil that's wishing me well

Tryna escape, cuz sadness is all in this cage

I'm facing my fears but when I do it death is near

Got my demon whispering in my ear

He's made it clear on what I've become

I'm actually done, I've wasted my time

Hurting myself cuz I say that's it's fine

I'm useless in life

Every day's hard, I'm tryna make it by

One day I'll end it, I won't say goodbye

People around me all they do is lie

Even the close ones left me behind

Leaving me sad when I had a knife

Inside of my head I'm losing a fight

I don't know what ima do with my life and I

Really don't wanna lose

It's hard to believe but it's true

I apologize cuz I bother

Don't lie to me cuz I know I do

My wrist get colder as I'm getting older

I'm not fucking sober, cuz my life ain't over

You know that I'm numb to the touch

I'm slitting my wrist cuz you know it gets rough

And people tell me that I'm never enough

Like what have I done? It feels like I'm dumb

And I wanna have fun just like the rest

I'm not the best to be around

I always annoy, never full of joy

When I was a kid I was played like a toy

All of my happiness was destroyed

I'm all alone, I feel the void

I am that one friend they avoid

Life is something I really don't enjoy

All of my happiness was destroyed

I try to fit in but I know I annoy

I am that one friend they avoid

I try to fit in but I know I annoy

I know I annoy