the day i lost myself for you ft. lxser Lyrics

I wake up inside of this life

That I don't even like and I can't even fight

Why can't you see the signs?

I'm tired of looking for happiness

That is something that I will never find

People bring in all this hype, never stop the grind

Even though I cry, cuz I got nobody to talk to

I'm writing these songs while holding a knife

You know that it's true

I don't wanna end it, that's not an escape

And so I get high to feel okay

Even when I really wanna slit my veins

The pain never goes away

I feel like an addict for being this way

But nobody helped death is what I crave

People tell me to be brave

Even when I'm not okay (I'm not okay)

I just need to breath I can't escape

I keep on falling, can I have a break?

Everyone's mad I can't keep a pace

I know I can't leave, but why would I stay?

I wish I could sleep I'm always awake

Three AM it's too damn late

Gotta wash my face

New nightmares

But even at day it's stuck on my skin

My toothpaste is mint

I have to be perfect like down to the bit

If I'm not flawless then why would I live?

Nobody cares bout' the effort I give

Giving my blood and my tears and my sweat

My dreams just get crushed like please watch your step

But no they will never, they all know they're better

And I'm just the sheep in the pent, soon to be dead