Stupid Fucking Loneliness Lyrics

Met you on a phone sex line when I was 19

For me it was my first time for you I guessed it was routine

Took me about an hour to drive to your condo in West Hollywood

You were 42 and balding or maybe you were 28

Whatever you were ancient to me

Then you offered me tea I wanted beer but I understand

I'm under age

Well at least you didn't make me

Smoke out on the balcony

You wanted to talk first

I'd come for sex

And every word you made me say

Gave me another second thought

You asked what it was like being gay

For me

I told you I came out in high school

And you said wow

I'm so proud of you

It was a fucking nightmare

Full of death threats

I had to summon all my courage

Just to leave the house each day

What is there to be so proud of

I'm not proud

My life is depressing

Look where I am with you

I want to puke up your fucking gay pride herbal tea

When are we going to have sex?

Are you going to suck me off?

Because I'm definitely not sucking you old man

Who probably has HIV

Finally you're done showing your care and concern

For this boy you invited over

You've asked me the requisite questions

That made me even more fucking depressed

About my fucking shithole life

Thank god you're finally inviting me into the bedroom

And turning on the porn

Because I ain't getting no boner

Looking at your receding hairline

Stupid wimpy fag

Oh fuck why are you getting undressed

I don't need this shit

I should have stayed home

And just jerked off

Over and over and over and over and over

Stupid fucking loneliness