The Worst Part About Cancer Lyrics

You wanna know the worst about having cancer?

It's not debilitating anxiety

Preventing me from doing anything

It's not imminent fear of death

And not knowing how long I have left

It's not the constant panic attacks and the

Every increasing anxiety stack

It's not logistically preparing for my own death

Figuring out my living will and testament

The worst part is that you gotta make

So many god damn phone calls

You gotta talk to like a 100 doctors

And none of their god damn emails work

So many god damn phone calls

Lost more of my life on the phone

Than I would have if my cancer had grown

I've called the doctor

Got my ducks in a row

I tell them "hey

Let's get this show on the road"

"I think I'm ready for my surgery"

But they gotta do few more tests before I'm ready

So many god damn needles

Stab you 1000 times

You'll be in pain for a while

So many god damn needles

IV blood draw FNA

A stabby stab every other day

Everyone asking if I'm doing okay

And I'm not quite sure what to say

But it's definitely overwhelming

To spend all of my free time sending

Updates to everyone in my life

"Hey hey hey I'm doing alright"

Sorry if I don't reply

Sometimes I feel that I'd rather die

So many god damn messages

I don't mean to ignore you

I don't have the mental energy for you

So many god damn messages

Please don't take it personally

I love you all incredibly

So many god damn phone calls