HEAVENLY FATHER, KEEP ME SAFE Lyrics

Heavenly father, gotta say I ain't been sleeping well

Keeping well, think I lost my faith in a wishing well

I take a coin and flip it, all comes clear as it falls

This ain't heaven's gates, but I see death, feel the claws

If not today then it could always be tomorrow

Our time is borrowed, no use wasting it in sorrow

So I've been working on myself, have I made you proud?

I'm just looking for a signal that you're still around

Heavenly father, it's been six years since I've seen her last

I still apologise, but it could not have been her time to pass

She was just a kid, with a whole life ahead of her

But now her only memory lies in roses and vetiver

Same patches of grass they lined with tiny tombstones

Never got to grow, but I guess it's all part of your plan

Maybe you're the same as I am, we all make mistakes

Made in the image of God, he got a babyface

Heavenly father, it's been five years since we met

Every day is on repeat, I hope it's coming to an end

Cut the outro, just fade out from the chorus

What's your plan moving forward, is there any more for us?

If you really got it mapped out, then it's destiny

And it doesn't matter what I do, everything was meant to be

So you took her from me, you nearly killed my mother

This is all your fault, guess you really ain't all loving

'Cause you're the cause of all this hurt

Maybe they flew too close to the sun, do angels wings get burnt?

Heavenly father, guess you deserted me again

But I'm gonna see you soon, we'll talk through it then

Fuck leaving a note, this is an open letter

So when we meet again they'll understand me that much better

Heavenly father, I just don't know what to do

Always looking for a cause, never thought bout blaming you

Cause we're put on this earth with the illusion of free choice

And with free will, we still choose to let the blood spill

Over the same fields with symbols of her memory

Enough is not enough, this conversations killing me

Father please hear me, I've been crying out for so long

I don't know how I can go on, knowing my whole life been so wrong

Never truly believed, I always wanted to

Total absolution in Christ, for the price of faith in you

I think that everybody has that moment

Where they have to take their pain and own it

Or they pass along the onus

In the firing of buckshot, you always catch a stray

Protect the holy spirit, keep the good followers safe

Father, hear me now, if you're still around

If you're still in every creature that ever made a sound

When they die, does a piece of you die too?

So we're not killing each other, we're only really killing you

And if I kill myself

Then your voice is gone for good

Think God forgot me on the rocks in search of cleaner fresher fruit

My spirit's destitute, ain't no hell or purgatory

Ain't nobody praying for me, I'm always by myself, I'm lonely

Even when we speak, I feel this bitter distance

There's a universe between us, this time I truly mean it

You say we'll meet again; if not now then when?

Maybe we're better off friends, still be together in the end

When our bodies laying dormant, food for worms and thought before us

As together we stay haunted by the things that always taunt us

Life's unanswered questions didn't get any clearer

Gather the sinners and believers see which side should truly lead us

Cause I been following leaders, playing both sides

Lighting sage that's wrapped in bible pages, praying over lay lines

High tales with some low lives, high fashion comes with low pride

Quick tumble but a slow rise, I fumbled but it's alright

Heavenly father, there's only one thing left to do

'Cause I was never scared of death, I was only scared of you

We'll talk through it then

The choir sings again

Just a mortal man

Life comes quick

But I don't care about it

Got nothin' left to give

Got nothin' left to live for

Keep 'em away, I'll come when it's safe

Keep 'em away, I'll come when it's safe

Keep 'em at bay, don't know when it's safe, yea

Demons at bay, I'll come when it's safe

Know it ain't safe, when I get messy

Know I was born with no blessing

Hit 14 before he met me

Father to only my chemistry

Raised by a single mother

Only child no brothers

Stayed inside under covers

Rope tied round my curtain rail for comfort

Saw the light on the other side say time to go

Closed eyes, I was born again paved a new road

Touched ground, left astound, dead on arrival

Came back same old shit plague my mind

Ways I found put me in the ground

Nodding out, same repeating sound

Keep 'em away, I'll come when it's safe

Keep 'em away, I'll come when it's safe

Keep 'em at bay, don't know when it's safe, yea

Demons at bay, I'll come when it's safe

Promises, sick of empty promises

Sick of my incompetence

Sick of fucking consequence

Never knew I'd make it

Never thought I'd see the day

Face the cause of my mistakes

Tomorrow's already laid to waste

May wake up in my casket case

Plans I made meant nothing, knew I'd flake

Life was never promised, could be mine He takes

All choices are final, hope it's mine He takes

My broken body dropping, Lord, please keep me safe