EYEZ//SCARZ Lyrics

I see the sun coming up

But I'm still snorting off of the table

I don't really give a fuck

About keeping myself safe and stable

Cut the cable, let me free fall

They offer help I know I need it

But this ain't over if I'm breathing

Sunk cost of substances I'm fiending

Got me fucked up

Got me blacked out in the corner

Out the door in early morning

Get ahead of today's scoring

By the afternoon it's gone

I know I fucked up I ain't got no self control

But I need all that and some more

I see hell behind the door

Do it how I wanna

Give a fuck about no karma

Lived in hell before I'm dead

Paved my way, live for my friends

Fly straight off the asphalt, ain't talkin' planes

Know a Cuban link but I ain't talkin' chains

Ice in my chest got me lost in a daze

How'd I get here? I'm amazed, but I

Line it up in broad day

Yeah, I do it my way

While my pupils dilate

Pirouette on ice wearing roller skates

Secret key of inner peace, it bends before it breaks

Never know how much it takes

Never do I take the bait

Only see myself in strangers

But I'm talking to the angels

Think you could walk with me?

I'm the box that set the sinners free

Oh, Pandora, lamb to slaughter, dodgin' facts bout my early grave

Got no time for six feet deep

You cannot come close to me

I been hidin' way outta way, mind not a state

This do not matter, need I remind you

I'm your provider, this what you came for

Ain't it?

Pay attention, 'cause this the show stopper

Do it how I wanna

Give a fuck about no karma

Lived in hell before I'm dead

Paved my way, live for my friends

Drip back like a leaking crack

White smoke curling off the can

Dark life with no back up plan

No shots, AC Milan

Cooped up in a caravan

With a little bag of magic and a flower stash

I'm nothin' but a product of my circumstance

Blame god he made me that, took my soul the devil gave it back in all black

With a pitchfork and a lit torch tellin' me

I'm gonna do some great things some day

But shit

Getting high don't get you paid

Only wastes away the days you can't face

There's gotta be another way, I can hardly show my face

Ashamed the path I take so I pray you don't relate

History repeats itself so I watch time flow backwards

Wrote stanzas to understand it

Memories feel underhanded

Living out the same things

Got cash, all cream

Motivation, no steam

Half mast, know what I mean?

Remember as a kid I used to look for the light

Still do it now but I still end up blind

Stunted at 16

Now I'm livin' in a pipe dream

Memories, my enemy

The past stay dead to me

Escape with coke or ketamine

Every horse makes gelatine

Old ways make by-products

The dairy cow made into Prada

Your old scars tell new stories

Life lived since you swore you couldn't

Your old scars tell new stories

Of the life lived since you swore you couldn't

For me therapy never lasted more than an hour

Just a hint of retreat before my problems reclaim power

Of a sombre mind

I'm trying to tackle all my demons at once

All I ever seem to do is find a new way to run

A new way to destroy myself

A new way to enjoy myself

Fucked up how I always get fucked up

I'm twenty years in, is this all that I've become?