Solitude Lyrics

I feel like I'm poisoned there's nothing but pain

I can't feel myself cause nobody's the same

I feel depressed and I'm ashamed

I don't wanna better myself anymore

I wanna hide away with this pain that I store

I don't want to be rude but I also

Don't want to live in peace with my solitude

I don't think I'll ever be loved again

I'm alone in a world where I can't fit in

I just sit and

Have a conversation with myself

On why am I living

Why am I constantly sinning

Why can't I express my feelings

Why do I have to be judged

For my appearance

Or how I'm feeling

Why do I have to keep going

When I can't even think of a moment

Of Where I felt chosen

Or wanted by people my heart is so cold

And my feelings feel frozen

Nothing will change me or break me ever again

When I'm down at my lowest

I promise you Blevey these motions are heavy

And you wanna leave but nothing will get to me

I say that respectfully

I don't have any friends cause all of you fake

I don't have my baby no more cause ima mistake

I know of only one person that would bring flowers to my grave

I know I'm not the same and I changed

My soul is nothing but flames

I don't wanna end my life

But I don't really care if I die

I'm still stuck with this pain in my mind

Stress and anxiety

Kill what's inside of me

Kill who I try to be

Kill all of these emotions that hide in me

Till I can finally breathe

I'm sinking slowly

My eyes start to bleed

I'm diving in waters to deep

Someone could pull me out

And stay for a week

Can't stand it any longer

Then they push me back to the deep

But still no one can fucking save me