Detatched Lyrics

Who am I?

What have I become?

I'm so fucking numb

To the pain in my brain

I don't wanna have fun

I'm so sick

Of every little thing and the Trauma

Built up in my brain

Still thinking about all the same things

Suicide hasn't crossed my mind in a long time

Don't mind think I'm gonna be just fine

Alright don't hit me up cause I just might

Try to block you my life

And I'm still wondering why

Why do I do this to me

The trauma that I dealt with

Doesn't ever let me sleep

Life isn't a dream

Can't ever make any friends

Cause apparently I'm to mean

But I speak in reality

I know some people don't like it

But it's what it has to be

The fucking audacity

Say I'm not speaking

Through minds like galaxy's

I see it as art but

You see it as cash to me

Sick of the sick

But maybe I'm sick of me

Cause nobody understands

Or ever try's to stick around and see

That I'm a good person at heart

Until somebody try's to start

Something then I get to talking my shit

But sometimes I take it to far

So everybody wants to be apart

When I'm defending myself

I don't need any women or wealth

To know that I'm a human with feelings

Even when I don't have any meaning

I'm reminded of the pain that I felt

The pain that I delt

You say that you need me

But then you deceive me

How in the hell do I make this shit easy

For you to understand that

I don't want you to leave me

So why the fuck would you leave me

Maybe cause your sick of me

I said it before and I'll say it again

Your probably free

And happier without me

Who are you?

What have you become?

I'm so fucking numb

To the pain in my brain

You don't wanna have fun

Your so sick

Of every little thing and the Trauma

Built up in your brain

Still thinking about all the same things

I'm so fucking detached

Facing life with nobody to watch my back

Its so fucking sad

I never had a dad

Fuck being glad

Girl left me and she ain't making it back

I know this a fact

Matter a fact while I'm bragging

Bout my fucked up life

I don't even know if ima have a wife

Employed so working is all in my mind

I don't have any time to be kind

Fuck love ima have to open my eyes

Realize that your no longer mine

So I'm taking my 9 and I'm thinking it twice

Don't think I have the courage

To bury these burdens

Or leave so many people hurting

Over a dumb decision instead of learning

And over coming my mistakes

I swear momma ima be great

And do my best to avoid the hate

Therapy isn't for me

But to those people it's gonna be ok

You'll battle that fate

And start looking for faith

Start looking for healing

Start working a job employed by the state

Then you'll move on

Better your life and

The negative thoughts would be gone

You found the one thing

Keeping you here for so long

Don't let go of it cause

When it's gone it'll stay gone

I know every about me is negative

But I'm doing something to better it

Music is my therapist

Talking about what I feel in a song is bettering

Its fucking bettering