Why Lyrics

Why?

That's a question I'm starting to ask myself a lot

Like why do I waste my time trying to be a version I'm not

Why are we arguing a lot baby let's just talk

Starting to think you'll be better off

Without me cause my life is lost

Trynna break the ice but the ice ain't soft

I know you love me

And trust me I'm trying

But I can't help it if I rather be hiding

You know I been lying

When I'm sitting in silence

I don't sleep fine

I'm not ok and you knew that

Your tried your best to prove that

You did your part I fucked up mine and I know that

You wanna help me and start from my past

But I can't go back

Why am I like this?

You don't ever tell me shit

You don't know what you have until you lost it

Why don't I like me?

I hate myself I think I know why

I couldn't keep anyone around

they all wish I would die

Isn't it funny?

I'm the only one who cared

Got so use to having no one there

No inspiration

I can't even say I made it

Made you happy I can't make it

You were happy had a voice

I decided to take it

Before we met you were happy

And wouldn't even have to fake it

I'm slowly fading away

Been a minute since I felt ok

It's hard to feel great

Regret decisions I made

I know your listening to this now

And I want you know I know you never been proud

Never wanted to figure me out

How you say your a man and

Leave your family without a doubt?

Haven't picked up your calls

Or answered your messages

Never left a voicemail but this what

The message is

I don't ever wanna hear from you again

Don't want you to know how I been

Your not a father or a friend

Your nothing not even a man

You raised an ignorant kid

Left him doesn't even know what he did

Knows it's not his fault but it feels like it is

How could you do that to him?

Your abusive and neglectful

Hope the way you left

And these word I said aren't helpful

I want you to know what you did is unacceptable

And its fucking unforgivable

No inspiration

I can't even say I made it

Made you happy I can't make it

You were never happy

Left me like you couldn't take it

After you left I been happy

And wouldn't even have to fake it