I'm Trying Lyrics

I'm trynna be good

I know that I am

I'm sorry I don't understand

Need a talk I'm open don't got any plans

I'm here just lay of the Xan's

I'm trying to do better

While I stay up at night

Wonder what I could write

I know I should be doing better

I'm open and free

Just give me time to be working on me

Don't ever be scared to be open for me

I'm here forever won't ever leave

I hide all my pain so I don't feel the hurt

I know I'm never in first

Only at my worst

Feel like im a curse

Stuck in this verse

To many things I gotta rehearse

I feel like I'm better but maybe I'm worse

I think I need an escape

To many thoughts everyday

Just because they smile

Doesn't mean that they're ok

Just because they have someone

Doesn't mean they're safe

Doesn't mean they're safe

You can not joke about this

They say that your sick

Mentally and physically hit

Now they're making you sit

Giving you meds

Doping you up

Till your not in your head

Now your dependent

Relying on pills to make you feel like you again

Destroying your brain

You think that your going insane

Your losing it but not because of pain

You cant find those pills now your sitting in shame

You feel like you need them

But the pills are deceiving

Multiple pills at a time and it wouldn't be me who is leaving

You don't even care

I get it the past is traumatic

But you should stay here

We suffer a lot

We go through a lot

But even the simplest things you couldn't bare