Momma Lyrics

Mom I still love you that will never change

We just love eachother in completely different ways

You love me for 9 months I was stuck Crushing your bladder

I love you for 18 years I was stuck climbing the ladder

No it wasn't perfect but you gave me a place to live

Dad would make the money while you sat there watching friends

So I'm sorry if it's hard for me to think of you as kin

Resentment as a kid I was thinkin this was it

But now I know the show is only about to begin

Now I've got a daughter and the fear is pouring in

Will she end up like me or end up like you

Which one is the worst I can't really tell the truth

Wife has innocence I never ment to miss everything I've lost

But when I look at her I think really what's the cost

Mom I miss you I just wish you weren't who I picture in my brain

It's an issue I can't get through cause it's embedded in my veins

It's in my DNA that addiction of affliction

It's scrambling my brain till I sit there in my ripped chair

Envisioning the pain cause I've got no one I can call on

When I cannot find my way what can I really say

My life is like the ashes in your ash tray

Left alone and forgotten dumped the next day

After all that I've gotten not a single thing has changed

I'd shed a tear for you and I'd say that your forgiven

But honest I've forgotten just what has got me livid

What's my favorite color what's my favorite food

You'd never even know cause I never left my room

Why would I want to when out there is a war

Dad is yelling at momma mommas out the door

Dad is crying for momma and I don't know what for

I'm getting chills and watery eyes just writing This song

Is it because I miss you or I wish it to be gone

I Don't what to do So I'm writing you this song

I can't tell the truth cause I don't even know what's wrong

I never had a family we got it all wrong

Mom and dad were felons always breaking the law

They were Swinging they were slinging and worst of all gone

Brother is out drinking or ripping a bong

Hanging out with Shaun in the middle of the lawn

Sisters with her boyfriend trying to escape from our mom

Till she got with Trent then she went and od'd

Now I'm in a place where nobody knows me

Sister was in the hospital and I didn't go see

Mom was in later over a dead kidney

Brothers got epilepsy we barely even speak

Life got ahead of me It's making me weak

Working all day and I barely sleep a wink

I'm feeling like a failure I am the weakest link

I'm hoping it don't bite me and my daughter loves me

I'm hoping I can finally set us all free

Before it's over and done remember one thing

We may be of the same blood but you're all strangers to me

So momma I am sorry if I say I don't care

You can ask my wife nothing in life's fair

I'm hoping that I see you if I'm climbing up those stairs

Just know I can't give you something that I know isn't there

Maybe in the future maybe things can change

Maybe in the future we won't be estranged

Maybe you can nurture and then you can find your way

Maybe it'll stay the same who can really say

So momma I am sorry if I say I don't care

You can ask my wife nothing in life's fair

I'm hoping that I see you if I'm climbing up those stairs

Just know I can't give you something that I know isn't there