Outside (Alt) Lyrics

Rapping in the back with my back to the wind

Don't know where I'm going but I know just where I've been

Am I losing all my focus or am I growing from within

Don't know if im chosen I just know im here to win

Keeping it cold with the dopest of flows

I've seen a high and the lowest of lows

I've been alright and close to ghost

Still don't know what it means to grow

Still feeling like the only joke

That no one knows the answer to

Don't know what I'm supposed to do

To find the road that leads to you

I just know I've tried my best

And when I'm dead and laid to rest

There is none that will detest

Still I feel I've failed the test

I guess that's what depression does

Obsessive when I grab the gun

Aim at who I knows the one

That's leading me to just excuse

And just abuse my only views

Screws are loose sit in the pew

And pray to God im lost in thoughts

But what's the cost of wasted time

Stuck in my mind all the plans

That I devise of my design

Always lead to my demise

Cause I'm on the outside Now I'm looking in

The windows are all broken And im picking up the pen

Don't know what to focus on I'm focused on my sins

Head is a grenade and now im pulling all my pins

Im Taking my shots I've taken my shots against all of my kin

Taking the gun and flipping it on the evil that's within

Infecting my brain and cutting my veins the Devils deafenin

All of my thoughts im calling the shots and no ones getting in

No one's getting in

Cause I won't let em in

No one's getting in

Now I'm drowning in my sin

Closing all my doors and locking up the windows

Now I'm changing course it's somewhere that I've been though

They struck me from behind im hearing the crescendo

Always change their mind it's like im playing limbo

Cause now I'm bending backwards just to meet all their demands

Say boy I know you playing when I tell em I'm the man

Say that you won't make it show em that you can

Cause when my legs are broken I'm the only one helping me stand

Only one helping me stand im the only one helping me stand

One day I know I'll have the fans to finally fill the stands

Crazy to think that a guy like me will one day be able to stand

His own reflection with no expression that sick obsession

To push the message Of his depression I asked the questions

And now I finally see I finally get the lesson and now I finally see

Cause I'm on the outside Now I'm looking in

The windows are all broken And im picking up the pen

Don't know what to focus on I'm focused on my sins

Head is a grenade and now im pulling all my pins

Im Taking my shots I've taken my shots against all of my kin

Taking the gun and flipping it on the evil that's within

Infecting my brain and cutting my veins the Devils deafenin

All of my thoughts im calling the shots and no ones getting in

It's been a long road

With a long way to go

I'm only just beginning

To fully understand

If you really feel like winning

You've gotta withstand

Everything he's giving

Is really just a hand

To teach you life's lessons

Or to build a thick skin

You've gotta see the blessings

And let it sink in

That we're really just peasants

In his kingdom that we're in

He could give us a million dollars

What would we do then

If we really didn't earn it

Then we'd sink into the sin

Don't know the value of money

Is less then the time you spend

Another bottle of funny

Soon Turns into your regrets

Smoking cigarettes

Just to feel the high

Who cares if you die

Committing suicide

I would never lie when I'm telling you

I'm just like you You've gotta fight

Survive the night turn up the mic

And grab my hand It's time to stand

And look at life on the other hand

Cause I'm on the outside Now I'm looking in

The windows are all broken And im picking up the pen

Don't know what to focus on I'm focused on my sins

Head is a grenade and now im pulling all my pins

Im Taking my shots I've taken my shots against all of my kin

Taking the gun and flipping it on the evil that's within

Infecting my brain and cutting my veins the Devils deafenin

All of my thoughts im calling the shots and no ones getting in