The Empty Lyrics

I would like to personally thank you all for joining me

On this immense monumentally immersive musical and magical trip

I hope you've enjoyed listening to my pain and hardships with mental illness

I know I've enjoyed sharing them with you

If this encourages just one of you to seek help with your struggles

Then it was a success in my eyes

Without further ado, I present to you Ketamine Infusion Dream number six, The Empty

I can't stop thinking about the last one

Something changed on that one

I couldn't tell you what it was but

I know that something happened

I know I was really out of it

And it wasn't just imagined

Appointment number six

If I'm fixed after this then it's magic

Five minutes early I've arrived

Clouds are in the sky

I have a sadness in my eyes

From Ego Death I'm petrified

I am surprised I'm still alive

Because I watched me die

Playing tricks on a fragile mind

Ketamine is wreaking havoc

With each other we hold hands

Tonight is our last dance

And never mind the band

This is my chemical romance

You deceived me at the first glance

But I gave another chance

And then I gave you more and more

I went to war with two tied hands

A broken heart and shattered skull

Mind blown apart like a cannonball

Slammed into a damaged wall

I never landed from the fall

I sink or float but please just take me

Make my demons face me

I'm broken you can't break me

Here's what I learned on that ketamine they gave me

Happiness is lies with smiles and envy

Watch the world go by with whatever is trending

Low confidence and procrastination has kept me

From thriving in my life now I feel so empty

The thought of suicide always seemed so tempting

I died inside now I feel so empty

I tried and I tried and nothings been helping

I survived and I'm alive but I feel so empty

Sit me down in the chair and strap me in

Hit the top of my fist with a fat syringe

I mean IV she stabbed it in

Ketamine and saline bring the baggies in

In that place pitch black I'm back again

By myself alone feeling sad again

My life's a dump truck full of fuck back it in

To my subconscious I'm tapping in

Trapped within stuck in some kind of time warp

Same chill no thrill while my mind soars

Big Bang I saw time before dinosaurs

Krang brain, mutant ninja Michael I'm floored

If gods real whys mankind an eye sore

He could've at least made us despise war

And why the fuck did make my Nana die for

Then banish me to this place where I'm bored

I swore this shit wasn't gonna work

I'm not a devil but in no way I'm pure

I've done some really unforgivable dirt

So maybe I don't deserve to have my mind cured

Trapped in a dream I'm thinking philosophical

From the what ifs all down to the logical

I'm a pro at rhyming still my mind is broke

Times fake and my fight is psychological

Still depressed but I don't wanna die no more

Still stressed but all of its survivable

I live in survivor mode while I cope

And I think I'll come out of this finding hope

Ima go out this dream and prey I lost my crazy

Maybe I focus on too much of the negative lately

Death is not the answer and I can see that I'm changing

I guess you could say that ketamine infusion dreams saved me, but still

Happiness is lies with smiles and envy

Watch the world go by with whatever is trending

Low confidence and procrastination has kept me

From thriving in my life now I feel so empty

The thought of suicide always seemed so tempting

I died inside now I feel so empty

I tried and I tried and nothings been helping

I survived and I'm alive but I feel so empty