End of my Rope (21 Years) Lyrics

Um, I, I haven't been feeling too great lately

Um, when I don't feel too good I kind of keep to myself but

Um, listen I'll do my best to explain it so try to bear with me

I'm at the end of my rope

There's not a day anymore that ends in hope

If feels a lot like a hunt

But it's me at both ends of the scope

I'm out for the kill and I'm bout to be killed

Either way I go it's by my hand

Been like this since G-field

No matter how many times I change my land

Insane I am, in plain I am losing all my marbles

The same I stand, so drained I can't believe in tomorrow

No games are planned, in pain I am soaking in my sorrows

In vain I can't make change I can't live life on time that's borrowed

Everyday I wake up and you're what I think of first

Every day's a struggle and every day it's getting worse

Every day I suffer and I wonder if I've been cursed

Everyday I wonder if tomorrow I'll be in a hearse

I been like this for at least the last 21 years

21 years, 21 years I been running from fear

21 years, 21 years I been holding in tears

21 years, 21 years feeling like death is near

I'm at the end of my rope

I almost never wake up on a positive note

How do I cope

I need to cleanse my soul but can't find the soap

A waste of life I'll say it twice I'm just a waste of life

I hate this life I want know what not being sad is like

I'm down so much that getting up just feels like a fight

I'm so tired but when I go to sleep I'm up all night

I don't know how much more of this shit I can take

I need a break I was my mommas worse mistake

Have some faith? fuck I can't shake the hate

Life is great?! Whatever you're on I'd like to take

Some of that shit because the nightmares are worse when I'm awake

Anymore I can barely even tell what's real or fake

The noose end of a rope

Put that bitch around throat

I just wanted to be the goat

But I'm not shit so I just drink and smoke

And try not to think of every part of my life that I've failed

Crazy train going off the fucking rails

I'm lost like anything that's in the mail

Sick and pale, bitter, angry, sad, and stale

Blind to the truth and I couldn't read the braille

Why does happiness feel like the holy grail

I'd walk that bridge and do anything to get some answers

Don't need perfection just not suicidal is what I'm after

Change my patterns

Cuz to the soul hates a cancer

If I give up everything I've done will it really matter

All the doctors

Off my meds you should call the doctors

Off my rocker, out my head

Since before I ever saw a locker

5150'd and, AND I've tried all the drugs

Prescriptions written to me and the ones you shouldn't touch

Feeling icky I don't deserve my family's love

Its getting tricky, man I feel so fucking fucked

All consuming

Probably from all the consumption

Now it consumes me

Straight or sober I can barely function

Your music sucks you won't make it

You're getting old you can't fake it

You drink to much you can't shake it

Your wife's fed up she can't take it

Give up your dream do something real

Stop complaining about how you feel

You eat too much, skip that meal

My brain spinning like a wheel

Your wife ain't still in love with you

Your brothers don't look up to up you

Your friends don't even fuck with you

You should end it but there's stuff to do

You work a lot to not have a dime

You work a lot and have no time

You don't work enough, you have the time

You just waste it like you do your mind

Why is life so fucking hard

Because you're dumb and think you're smart

That's how it goes for all you 'tards

Your music sucks worse than your art

How have you only come this far

Man they really lowered the bar

Kill yourself fuck tomorrow

Close that garage and start the car