Ego Death Lyrics

Sit me down in a chair then strap me in

Hit the top of my fist with a fat syringe

I'm mean IV, she stabbed it in

Ketamine & saline bring the baggies in

Hang that bitch and let it rip

Drip drip drip I'm about to trip

On my life I'm tryna get a grip

Cuz I'm sick and I'm sick of thinking scary shit

Four out of six ain't work good luck with five

I got a wife that I love so I got to try

I gave up once but luck kept her by my side

So why do I still wanna give up and die

Then I felt something cold go through my veins

A chill down my spine and back up my brain

They upped the dose again & I'm feeling strange

But anything is worth it to kill this pain

Then I felt like Eleven stuck in The Void

I could see pitch black but couldn't hear the noise

Trapped in my mind I didn't have a choice

I'm overwhelmed with fear and feeling paranoid

That turned into an empty feeling in my gut

In a nightmare stuck and I wanna wake up

Or maybe I'm in a coffin laying face up

I ain't gonna wake up think I met my fate fuck

Then I died six times the most awful deaths

Put a gun in my mouth I blew off my head

Drove off a bridge and I died in the wreck

Jumped off a building made the sidewalk a mess

Car in the garage running til I lost my breathe

Hung from a beam with a rope around my neck

Drank til I withered away there was nothing was left

All so vivid I was scared to see what comes next

I saw myself die from the eye of the storm

I'm trapped inside, with myself I'm at war

I shook my minds hive and can't hide from the swarm

I'm still alive but I have no physical form

There's nothing when you die you just agonize

I felt the pain of me gone through my family's eyes

I felt the confusion and suffering of my wife

And the real weight of how it changed all their lives

Stuck in a realm all black I watched them cry

From that place all black I saw them say goodbye

Now I'm past tense (passed tense) what a tragic demise

All that's left of me is what they have in their minds

The worst part of all of this that I get to see is

I'm not only dead to them but they're dead to me

One bad choice and I lost my whole family

Now I'm sick to my stomach with regret and grief

Just when I thought it wouldn't end the whole things a wrap

I go outside break down and cry in front of Pat

Told him I think something inside might have snapped

Because I died six times and still made it back

I saw myself die from the eye of the storm

I'm trapped inside, with myself I'm at war

Empty inside, for my loss I will l mourn

I didn't know it then but a new me was born