recovery ft. Greygh0st Lyrics

Puzzle pieces, are what give us structure

If only we knew where to place each piece

I treat my passions like a canvas, and I paint my pain away

In my room there's a closet

And inside that closet lies a box of secrets

And inside this box of secrets lies the key to all these reasons of why I let myself fail so many times, to the point I couldn't leave this, house full of leeches

It's peachy really, knowing I could never find a good enough reason to get these things to change

I tried to rearrange my strange thoughts, but it only led me to anger

Over and over again, this path I started walking on grew longer

Till I found a staircase

But while walking up these steps, they kept growing steeper

And with every step I walked up, I grew more and more exhausted and drained

Till my legs were on the verge of giving out

I shouted out loud, but no-one was around to hear the sound of my pain

So I ended up falling off what I thought was the top

I dropped down, and couldn't get back up again

So now I'm here, withering away everyday, facing all of my mistakes I made, at a young age

Always filled with this rage, I just gave up on containing

You see, we're all tryna find our way in life

We all face trouble

We all race across rubble

We all work day after day, till our pay-grade doubles

We spend many decades of our life, hoping that one day, maybe we'll finally get a break from all the pain life gave us

And then we finally break-down

Mistake after mistake, we can only say"wow"

So then we stay-down

While the world tells us we should find a way out

But the more that we struggle to escape, the more energy we waste, till every bone and muscle breaks-down, and wears out

And now I'm trying to get myself back

All my lost days

When I felt like I was having a heart attack

My chest was caved in from anxiety

I fell back into

My malaise and

So now I'm trying to get myself back

Feel like I'm carrying the weight of a thousand lives

Minutes stretching into days never going by

Barely living with the shame of abandoning God

Instead I'm praying to the pain to finally let me die

I never really had the reigns of this fucking life ya'll

And obviously not the brains to ever like myself

Instead I'm whittling away at my own insides

The tree of me begins to fall in my private hellfire

Pieces of me start to flake and blow around my head

Little bits of good times disappear to dust

I'm looking at the blue sky but all I see is red

Remember when I had the meddle now I'm fully rust

G I been standing on the edge of my own death

Little seed begins to move within my unrest

Sun rays passing through my lonely frame of bones

A voice inside me saying Gh0sty u ain't done yet

And now I'm trying to get myself back

All my lost days

When I felt like I was having a heart attack

My chest was caved in from anxiety

I fell back into

My malaise and

So now I'm trying to get myself back