Till I Drown Lyrics

I don't know how to make sense of myself

Am I diving too deep in myself to excel?

Linger and tinker to figure things out

While in my shell (A shell of myself)

Hope for the future, regrets in my past

Thinking so much I don't realize I am

Whac-A-Mole issues I haven't addressed

I'm not even dressed, I'm still in my bed

But a boat wasn't made to spend its time waiting at the dock

It was made for more than just to float

Full of holes, leaking hope

Sinking into the unknown

Let it flow, then it shows

I'm just flailing for control

I can float for a while by myself

Without help until I drown

Oh oh, oh oh

Just floating till I drown

Oh oh, oh oh

Floating till I drown

Disconnected

Every other thought is a false intention

Every other thought is bomb that's pending to blow up,

Take a look up at the stars, see the cosmic semblance

Like a supernova

I'm doomed to blow up

Confused? I'll hold up

My youth ain't over

But I've grown up in an unbalanced way

I relate more to someone who's 58

Than somebody the exact same age

I wanna act my age

But that means I might have to gauge

What a guy my age does day to day

Ride waves of his teenage phase and save face?

All while stepping on the line to race to first place

But the winner is the guy afraid who just played it off the most

and got other people to rate

Are we all disconnected from ourselves in the same way?

Full of holes, leaking hope

Sinking into the unknown

Let it flow, then it shows

I'm just flailing for control

I can float for a while by myself

Without help until I drown

Oh oh (Oh oh)

Oh oh (Oh oh)

Just floating till I drown

Oh oh (Oh oh)

Oh oh (Oh oh)

Floating till I drown

Just wearing a mask

Afraid to let anyone in 'cause the past

Has taught us through memories how to react

So we disconnect from the ones who just love us and want what is best

What are you after? (Huh?)

Why do you look at yourself as pathetic and then get distracted? (Huh?)

Maybe you should quit living your life as an actor!

You're seeing it backwards!

Let's get real for a sec

Peel off that facade, get some air, take a breath

Let's talk back stage and jot all new ways to stay

Authentic through the plays life plays

This is not a game, but this is a test

Of whether you can accept REAL love in

in the face of regret

Take a page out the text,

and embrace what is set,

Just let God save and don't get obsessed as you introspect

Full of holes, leaking hope

Sinking into the unknown

Let it flow, then it shows

I'm just flailing for control

I let it go

Give up control

But I'm stubborn still, no doubt

'cause without your help

I'll drown