Absent Lyrics

I am lost in the absence of realness

Imagine acting real but then having

Visions, ideas up in the abstract, there's

Questions to ask that I cannot grasp yet

I am stuck in this knot

It's tying me down don't want this

We're in my own subconscious

Why is there so much nonsense

Thoughts clog my head I'm jarred

A lost cause to fix my heart cuz

Tossed Shards of traumas hit me

I'm scarred, my fault I thought this

I don't wanna leave what my life has been, comfort's

Been a part of me, I fall back it seems all sorts

Of realities come through me, I absorb

Many different things, think I need to adjust more

But I can't do it - Can't do it

Yet I always keep moving - Keep moving

I'm impulsively choosing

What to do and

I know it is confusing

But I'm life's student

I am lost in the absence of realness

Imagine acting real but then having

Visions, ideas up in the abstract there's

Questions to ask that I cannot grasp yet

I am stuck in this knot

It's tying me down don't want

This, we're in my own subconscious

Why is there so much nonsense?

Thoughts clog my head I'm jarred

A lost cause to fix my heart cuz

Tossed Shards of traumas hit me

I'm scarred, my fault I thought this

I've been thinking for too long

Don't know how to stop it

My thoughts are super sharp, yet they're often plotless

And they're the shards that cause all this trauma nonsense

Cuz they plow up all garbage I've fostered while farming

Reflective pain (Pane) to my eyes

It's an insane way of life

So many hooks inside my brain await with bait for a line

That makes me enticed

Like Hey I can painstakingly try

To pave lanes with pride

That way they will stay grey till I die

I hate to comply

And all I see is shame on road signs

I sway on the lines, it's no surprise when there ain't no lights

My eye sight went blind, so now I guess it's time to decide

Do I stray and disguise or do I defy and arise