impure intentions Lyrics

I've done it today

I've raised my arms to the sky

The lord stalled and wouldn't let me forget

& The devil laughed & wouldn't let it go

One offered hope and the other offered fairies

I was crushed in this miserable dilemma

Awaking from sleeping decades

Somewhat naked & dead

Counting lost years, some were given

Some were used up, but mostly taken

So I huddle with my back-stabbing frenemies

I can't afford to lose that side of human nature

True friends of the dark side they are

Excuse my intentions for being so impure

I glossed through flaming screenshots recovering my soul

Probing a crazy genie witchcraft-er

Reason my sanity and praise sensations

I'd love to extract moisture and more

I'm in sour dire

My lord

I worship Your Highness

And I have sinful emotions

In this blackened heart to experience

Before I tidy my notions

I need to witness darkness before light

Sadness before laughter

Madness before forgiveness

Excuse my intentions for being so impure

Stretching out my mind debunking theories

Locating a spare locket of time tucked in a corner

For one last trip back down memory lane

Where it all went wrong

I wanted to go back to when we were innocent

Where you and I played with the second hand of time

You, pulling it backward into the void it came from

Wanting to stay careless in the moment

And I, pushing it forward to see where tomorrow takes us

I wanted to watch you breathe into womanhood

Wanting to build a family tree

But a hiccup in time interfered

Laying out costume-made dreams as I watched

& you couldn't resist

So you migrated & the crucifying taste of it still lingers

And I dived into those sad saga territories

& I showed myself around

Taming those old inflections

& I can't be anything but a memory now

So I gift-wrapped myself in a poem you liked

And sent it to you shaped as a memorial of me

If you feel anything but sincerity

Excuse my intentions for being so impure

But I've done what I can today

I've raised my arms to the sky

So excuse my intentions for being so impure