I'm So Lucky I Got Clean Before They Invented Fentanyl Lyrics

It took me years before I did the math

And saw the downsides of a vein collapse

Now I drink green tea and wag my finger lame

And warn fresh ears falling deaf about doing cocaine

Drugs these days are made by geniuses with no wit or charm

Names with no music designed to cause spiritual harm

Sold by art students to fund their next dropshipping start-up

The art's not made by artists, just flipped to make a buck

And in the great halls of power they legislate rights away

The cracks to eek out ourselves are sealed much to our dismay

To reach other modes of thinking we take substances that numb

But use one grain too many and you'll end up dead, considered scum

So where does that leave me, washed up with a brain

No substances to escape from the never ending display

Of avarice-laced aspirations that forever leave me crushed

That cause stronger men to retreat into the arms of angel dust

My friends all fall like dominos as their money slowly fades

The rent, the food, the bills the everything that they cannot pay

The violence caused by desperation of being in the red

The hunger pangs rippling through the houses which are never fed

The wind that blows plastic bags across neighbourhoods I know

The tattered clothes beneath bridges and shattered needles in alcoves

The blisters on the fingers always tending to the stoves

The growing markets only available to those that work from home

The pain I feel in abstentia for distant foreign lands

The contentment felt by others which my ego cannot stand

The dragging monotone drawl of my internal dialogue

The narcissism I embrace when I record these words in analogue

In the last chest compression I manage before my heart finally gives out

The cliche comes true, and my life is replayed with no doubts

Every test I studied for, and every lover for whom I pined

Flashes between moments which are punctuated by the divine

In and out of blackness the television sky finally begins to drain

The final hit of ecstasy numbs all fear that sits within my brain

The years I spent studying, dreaming, yearning, reaching for another

Are all for naught, as the life I prepared for bleeds into the gutter