Always Alone Lyrics

You know, I've always been alone

I was always that type of person, you know?

I never really could fit it with the people

Solitude was what I grew addicted to

That's real talk

Inside my mind is a piano, there is always a tone

Solitude melodies, I am always alone

Always in my zone, writing all my problems away

Writing's a struggle against my silence when I don't know what to say

The most easiest task is pretending I'm okay

So much damage in my past, caused my future to crash

The curse is sticking out my ass, shitting heavy on folks

They try their best to understand me but they never come close

So they can't stand me, frustration boils up, toxic hatred

Still no peace has arrived, no matter how long I've waited

I'm always talking to myself, venting out what I feel

Sometimes I wonder why I'm paying for my phone bill

Sometimes I wonder why I'm hated for just keeping it real

They took advantage of my kindness, they can keep it, for real

I used my weakness to be cold, what they knew has been sold

What I feel now, they don't know, yeah, I'm always alone

I stay all by my lonesome, I am always alone

They fail to understand me, I am always alone

It's hard for me to trust a soul, I'm always alone

I love to be alone, that's why I'm always alone

I don't know, it's just the chemical imbalance that's in my brain

That makes me feel what I feel, ya know?

I can be the sweetest person in the world, but at times, I turn devilish once I'm around people

Or when my depression kicks in

That devilish side of me is not the real me, tho

It makes me push people away, that's why I'm always alone

I'm always alone, in between it, is love

Obsessions with solitude won't stop, more people get blocked

And so that puts me on the top of being the best loner

Graduated from my childhood and earned a diploma

Went straight into adulthood and I failed, constantly

All I passed for is misery, this hell is constantly

Burning me, I have four mental illness degrees

Social anxiety, bipolar, anxiety, ptsd

And they all swirl in order inside my mind, and drown me

All my homies that I trusted, betrayed me and clowned on me

Jokes on me, I find it funny that when they needed help

I was always fucking there, I'm always by myself

When I need 'em, is that fair? is it fair they resent me?

Once I stopped giving money out, the deck was stacked against me

They don't care if you're empty, too broke to even get a home

If it's never beneficial to them, always alone

I stay all by my lonesome, I am always alone

They fail to understand me, I am always alone

It's hard for me to trust a soul, I'm always alone

I love to be alone, that's why I'm always alone