Tales of a Failed Altruist Lyrics

I don't always wanna be the bad guy

But I can't do much else but face the facts, I

Wanted to do better, but I'm not strong enough

I just take advantage of you till you're all out of love

Oh my

Promise I don't really want to hurt you

My selfish tendencies are such a curse, you

Say that I can't help it, wish I could prove you wrong

I'm a slave to my own vices, so I sing you my song

I'm the antagonist of my own plane

I can't escape this bed I've made

Certain I can't change my ways

You'll do better to forget my name, alright

Mother told me therapy would be the answer

But I know it won't work, I'll be damaged forever

Looking in the mirror is my number one fear

So I'd rather stay reviled by my friends and my peers

Family won't talk to me, they look at me sadly

And I know I'm always gonna be the black sheep

Anxiety runs in my genes, but I'm still to blame

'Cause I'm not the one who bears the brunt of all of my pain

The antagonist of my own plane

I can't escape this bed I've made

Certain I can't change my ways

You'll do better to forget my name

The whispers of the ancient snake

The teenage devil wears my face

And I will never change my ways

You'll do better to forget my name, oh no

Ooh, yeah

Tell me who you want me to be

As long as I don't have to change

Tell me who you'd wish me to be

Just as long as I can stay the same

I can never grow beyond the same old troubled kid

Learning would require me to atone for what I did

I don't want to, I refuse

I reserve the right to choose to be this way

I'm too terrified to change, so

Here we go again (here we go again)

Another friendship up in flames

Another bloodstain on my name

It's getting really hard to pretend

I'm not the one to blame

Here we go again (here we go again)

Another friendship up in flames

Another bloodstain on my name

It's getting really hard to pretend

I'm not the one to blame

I won't

I won't

I won't do what it takes to change

I won't do what it takes to change

I won't do what it takes to change

I won't do what it takes to change

To change, to change, to change, to change

Tell me what you want from me

Tell me what you want from me

Tell me what you want from me

Tell me what you want from me

Tell me what you, what you, what you

Tell me what you, what you, what you

Tell me what you, what you, what you

What you, what you want from me

As long as I can stay the same

I just wanna live my life, my life, my life

My life, my life, my life, my life, my life

So what if I die, I die, I die

I die, I die, I die, I die, I die

I die

I die

I die

I die

I die

I die

A brush with death is all it takes

To realize that I've made some mistakes

Now it's time, there's choices to be made

To wallow here forever

Or start to make it better, I say

No more slinging selfish lies

No more tears fall from my eyes, I won't

Be hurting you forever

Promise you I can do better

No more living make-believe

No more friends enable me

Don't forgive and don't forget

Just put this boy to rest, and I say

Don't keep living in yesterday

Take today to learn from yesterday

And do good things tomorrow

Before I change my life

Are my reasons right

Or do I just want you to sympathize?

I don't deserve forgiveness

'Cause nothing takes back what I've done

Can't put this bullet back in the gun

I may never atone enough to satisfy

But all I can do is try

Here we go again (here we go again)

Another friendship up in flames

Another bloodstain on my name

It's getting really hard to pretend

That I'm not the one to blame

I'm the antagonist of my own plane

I can't escape this bed I've made (I'm not the one to blame)

Certain I can't change my ways

You'll do better to forget my name (I'm not the one to blame)

Forget my name (I'm not the one to blame)

Forget my name

Don't remember me after this

Don't remember me after this

As just a failed altruist