Is it cruel to be kind? Lyrics

It was a beautiful addiction

When it began

At the eastern wall, I lied

With my spider monkeys

Going on 300 weeks so far

Accumulating new pollution on my side

Bleeding excess black

Words I find unnamed

Meanings untagged, marked in red

Phrases hit me; I'm bruised & blue

Some tamed, just come along

Walking the green

I'm so color-full.

Misery awaits today like a good friend

Rushing me into the mood

To filter my thoughts that

There is no such thing as the world

Is enough, to have you is,

Until I sleep....

What a lie

I'll meet the creeper

Wherever I may roam

On the flip side of the world

To give up the ghost,

For I'm not permitted to want

Just accepting what was given

Then I'll be fine again

When I go with the flow down below

Because I prayed that I wanted you to want me

Beside you on an angry throne

To secure rain when I die

To wash me away

To the gutters of your eternity...

Wishful thinking,

Like my friend of misery

What a waste of me to be

Misguided & sober

When all I just wanted is you

To break you

To have you

To have me as you weakness

& I'm failing,

What kind of mercy are you on?

Is it cruel for you to be kind?

Is it cruel to be kind elsee?

is it cruel to be kind?