the star that gave out Lyrics

They tell you to find purpose in life

It's a funny one

But have you ever thought

What if this is all just a dream

Staring out the window

Looking at the sky and contemplating

How much pain must I endure before I'm cured from all this aching

All I got is me

It's a lonely world that I inhabit

I don't get too close cause when I turn my back they often stab it

The heart of man is tainted full of greed and envious

The soul of man is breaking chasing its' own exodus

Wonder what heaven is cause it feels I'm stuck in hell

The more I search for love the more I fucking hate myself

And I ain't proud of that it's hard to fathom peace within

I'm drowning fast feels like the flames of hell been leaking in

These demons breaching in they strip away my sovereignty

Feels like the blood of sin been flowing through my arteries

It's hard to see the light when deep inside my soul is weeping

Can't tell what's wrong from right cause love is often so deceiving

And so I drift away seclusion is my remedy

I'm quite afraid my own mind could be the end of me

Don't know who I am

Don't know what my purpose is

As I search within

The more I seek the worse it gets

Wish I could escape

To a place where nothing dies

Nothing last forever

And that truth kills me deep inside

Staring out the window

Looking at the sun and broken sky

Life could be so blissful but my thoughts become my own demise

Always loud inside my head my thoughts become burdensome

Doubts consume my heart with dread and pure contempt it's worrisome

I hope one day I free myself from my own mental shackles

And I'll prevail and all my deepest fears will be dismantled

It's hard to handle truth when you feel used and rendered worthless

Mentally abused there's so much pain beyond the surface

But I don't show too much unless you look deep in my eyes

You'll see my soul is crushed and you can hear a million cries

Shadows of my past they follow every move I make

My guilty conscious got me drowning in my past mistakes

The truth is hard to face when your reflection's burning slow

The person staring back is one which I no longer know

Where do you go when you feel lost within your existence

I can only hope one day I'll flee this mental prison

Don't know who I am

Don't know what my purpose is

As I search within

The more I seek the worse it gets

Wish I could escape

To a place where nothing dies

Nothing last forever

And that truth kills me deep inside