Fuxking Numb Lyrics

I just wanna' drink and get fucked up

I just feel so lonely inside my heart

I just wish that I could feel some love

Feel like I been stabbed with a million shards

I can't stand myself when I'm sober

Intoxicate myself so I feel alive

I just want this all to be over

I can't help that I feel so dead inside

I don't wanna' feel this fucking pain no more

I'm so tired of feeling empty deep inside my soul

Being alive just doesn't feel the same no more

Maybe it's just time to clock out and let go

I promise you I'm tryna' be the best I can

The more I try to love myself the more I hate who I've become

I honestly have no clue who the fuck I am

I wanna' drink the pain away till' I get drunk

I wanna' get fucked up and drift away

And when the sun comes up I won't awake

Let the alcohol run through my veins

I know this is my fault I'm so ashamed

I don't wanna' be here anymore

I don't know what I have been looking for

I know that I'm damaged internally

I can no longer manage this misery

Close my eyes

Don't wanna' wake up

Hope is dying

And I'm afraid of

Being alive

Don't wanna stay here

Just wanna' lay here

I know my grave's near

Emptiness

Is all that I feel

Ever since

I failed to heal

My remnants

Will remain

I can't explain

This awful pain

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I just feel so lonely inside my heart

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Feel like I been stabbed with a million shards

Yo I swear to God I'll never feel again

Praying to God to help me heal within

If I died right before I wake would you take my soul if it's filled with sins

Fill my cup up to the brim

Getting fucked up to feel again

Getting drugged up to heal within cause my faith in God has been getting slim

All this pressure has been getting to me

All these heartbreaks have been too many

If I died now would you forget me

Would you regret the fact that you let me

I been crying for so fucking long

Crying for help in every fucking song

It's more than music these are my alarms

Don't act surprised I warned you all along

How much longer will I stay on earth

How much harder do I have to search

How much stronger just to bear the hurt

What if death is what I deserve

I'm out of breath running from this curse

I'm out of breath running from this curse

There's nothing left I have zero worth

Let me rest in peace deep below the dirt, fuck

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I just feel so lonely inside my heart

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Feel like I been stabbed with a million shards

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Intoxicate myself so I feel alive

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I can't help that I feel so dead inside