Focus Lyrics

Suicidal thoughts scattered through my brain

Can't escape the pain

It's running through my veins

Suicidal thoughts scattered through my brain

Can't escape the pain

It's running through my veins

No matter how hard I try

I just wanna end my life

When I focus

Focus

No matter what I write I always feel down

Everything that I lost can never be found

All the trauma in my life it can't be rewound

Everyday that I wake up I know I'm grave bound

Never thought I would feel like this

In my 20s and all I want is to not feel like

I'm 40 years older than I'm supposed to be

Not physically but mentally I'm just not loving where I've turned out to be

To me

I feel like this place that I have been stuck in this rut

And this overwhelming feeling I gotta be something or what I hated

Seeing my parents being I will become it

Broke away so I could make something from it

Yeah

Suicidal thoughts scattered through my brain

Can't escape the pain

It's running through my veins

Suicidal thoughts scattered through my brain

Can't escape the pain

It's running through my veins

No matter how hard I try

I just wanna end my life

When I focus

Focus

Even tho I'm better now

Living life in a different town

Lately I've been riding with a different crowd

But the feelings they've been yelling loud

Hoping I can make 'em proud

Can I make them proud

When all I do is always hold myself back

I'm hanging from a rope is how I feel

No slack

I'm tryna to go somewhere

But I'm just standing still

All of these mountains and I can't even move an ant hill

No matter what I do I lay awake at night

No matter where I go it

Never feels right

No matter what I do

I'm always lost

And it leaves me stuck with all these thoughts

I got these

Suicidal thoughts scattered through my brain

Can't escape the pain

It's running through my veins

Suicidal thoughts scattered through my brain

Can't escape the pain

It's running through my veins

No matter how hard I try

I just wanna end my life

When I focus

Focus