Entropy Lyrics

Came to Earth on a Sunday the thirteenth

A blessing and a curse

Born to poverty stricken erotic addicted perverts

Momma flaunting her tits while my father was diddling girls

Living nomadic, nomadically living from curb to curb

Got no scholarly consistency

Always was new to wherever I'm learning

Hopping school to school

Often had to relearn shit

Future uncertain

Then my momma left me and my brother

Right there on her cousin's brand new front doorstep

My father left the picture many years before this

So he was never the one I was dreaming of returning

Was never even mentioned even in parental court

But of course

Was a part of the reason depression flourished inside

'Cause both of them decided to abandon at one time

Then Amy started beating me once ma was out of sight

And chained me as a slave before I graze the age of five

So by the age of seven I consider suicide

But that's fine

'Cause over time they say it'll slide away

Life will heighten

But now I'm nineteen still writing about my trials

Still fighting with my own psyche that isn't dying down

Crying out

Why do you smile when you're so vile now?

Life amounting around to nothing

And ain't gon' rise up now

Childhoods are littered with highs

While yours was by the ground

So right now, give in to entropy

And start flying out

You said I'd be just fine

But you lied to my face a hundred times

You feel no shame

Now you ruined my life

All because you thought you'd had enough

Said goodbye to my face

Now you ruined my life

There is no safety no more highs

You said I'd be just fine

But you lied to my face

And now I'm dying

Serotonin draining

Barely focus daily

Hair of hope is hanging

Rate of balding's heavy

Serotonin draining

Barely focus daily

Hair of hope is hanging

Rate of balding's heavy

World is cutthroat

And I ain't meant to get a bag or indulge hope

I ain't meant pick a path

Meant to crash, meant to choke

Yeah I'm meant to pass

Meant to live in grass

Meant to hold all of my talents in a tassel with a bow

Just to show you that I matter

That everything I have isn't hopeless but no

I'm better off to store it in a glass vial

Hoping that my last child finds it

And sees I'm not a joke

That passed the angsty music

Everything that I was using

To reverse my depression was anything

But close to wholesome

Was poking holes in my tongue and cheek

Trying not to speak

To stay focused

On most other things but these deep diseases

Seeping in the cerebral and eating me

With intent to take over

So give in to entropy

And let it erupt the death of me

What's left to see

The death of a nation of hatred

With no empathy uh

But that's fine

'Cause once I die I won't have to tolerate what I'm fighting

I'll finally find my peace fill desires and finally smile

No lying to my own psyche that isn't dying down

Crying out

Why do you smile when you're so vile now?

Life amounting around to nothing

And ain't gon' rise up now

Childhoods are littered with highs

While yours was by the ground

So right now, give in to entropy

Let it die now

You said I'd be just fine

But you lied to my face a hundred times

You feel no shame

Now you ruined my life

All because you thought you'd had enough

Said goodbye to my face

Now you ruined my life

There is no safety no more highs

You said I'd be just fine

But you lied to my face

And now I'm dying

You said I'd be just fine

But you lied to my face a hundred times

You feel no shame

Now you ruined my life

All because you thought you'd had enough

Said goodbye to my face

Now you ruined my life

There is no safety no more highs

You said I'd be just fine

But you lied to my face

And now I'm dying