Hydroxyzine ft. mYnus_greY Lyrics

Sometimes all I ever need is just my medication

Because I'm not in the right headspace

Or my thoughts begin to start racing

Until I'm craving death

This my brain uh

Left and right I'm veering every day

I can't stay straight but

Homophobic comments everyday disrupt

The pace of my fight or flight

I'm always trying to right mistakes from my adolescence

Always stressing over some days ago

Sum insignificant but to me it's like I played you wrong

When in the present all I did was sully a tablecloth

Still in my head I play it over and over days along

Sum insignificant but to me it's like I

Played you wrong heart skipping beats

It sing a song a constant stream to frontal lobe

Where being happy's a choice no more

I wanna be free from it's hold

Where I finally get breathe from the sea of the loneliness

It holds me in where I can only think again

Of everything I ever did while living this life

Say it's fine, bitch you lie, why you messing with my mind

When you should've knew where I'm at

Took time out your bubble to trouble yourself with Matt

'Cause you know he gon' say it's fine

But deep down it's a fucking lie

He's been eyeing a knife within his proximity

Fighting the urge to take his own life in a swift attempt

But instead he gon' huddle out in his head

Denying everything

Lying to everyone 'cause nobody even exist to him

This reality isn't real

A hallucination or maybe a dream

Maybe a vision need to come to his senses

'Cause there's no way in his head that he has a lover

Who telling him everyday that he's special

One in a zillion

When all his life he's been wired to be no different

There's no believing it

Must be deceiving him

So it's a panic attack that raises the BPM

Got a lot of hate, a lot of weight, a lot of unsaid thoughts clenched inside of my fist

I throw the punch in my brain, feel it fade

It kinda feel like this

The sky is falling; don't tell me to relax

Don't touch my skin it get me stuck like freeze tag

Try to keep the breath flowing through my neck like the CPAP

Just be cool like I'm three stacks

(Bitch, I'm trying to be fucking cool)

The world treat me like an Outkast

You can meet me? Tell me how fast

You can relate? Bitch I doubt that

See, I was in my hometown

Threw a little party, I had thirty people over, drinking playing games

And my brain begin to zone out

I was barely even talking, way too fucking sober, homies call my name

When the world begin to slow down

Please do not address me, I'll turn into ghost, I don't really exist,

Anonymous as a pronoun

Everything screaming, like I'm gonna choke, air leave my lips

But when I listened there was no sound

Pop a pill pop a pill

'Cause I hardly wanna live

Pop a pill get a bottle

So I swallow all my sins

You cannot tell me to quit

You cannot tell me to watch my health nah nah

You cannot tell me shit

You never dealt with shit so nah nah nah

Pop a pill pop a pill

'Cause I hardly wanna live

Pop a pill get a bottle

So I swallow all my sins

You cannot tell me to quit

You cannot tell me to watch my health nah nah

You cannot tell me shit

You never dealt with shit so nah nah nah

You don't know my mental state

So don't you tell me wait it out

You ain't ever been afraid to leave your place

Step out the house

You ain't ever been detained for countless days

For blanking out

No you can't relate to anything inside my brain

So how you gonna tell me it ain't real shit

When you never panicked for no reason

Fearing everybody you can see

'Cause the people who had beaten you

Had stuck in your memory that everything is dangerous

Never trust a thing my thoughts are aimless

And to think

I'm supposed to be a stable person who can think straight

But I cannot for the life of me try or just stop whining

'Bout all of the abuse I been through in my life

I been internally fighting all turmoil since I was a child

No matter how much time I spend

All of it in my mind

And I'm stuck with it just until I get the courage to die

Mental's up again

Serotonin boosted into the sky

No more trust issues

I can finally safely live out my life

That's impossible

I need my Hydroxyzine so my mind can shut the fuck up

Pop a pill pop a pill

'Cause I hardly wanna live

Pop a pill get a bottle

So I swallow all my sins

You cannot tell me to quit

You cannot tell me to watch my health nah nah

You cannot tell me shit

You never dealt with shit so nah nah nah

Pop a pill pop a pill

'Cause I hardly wanna live

Pop a pill get a bottle

So I swallow all my sins

You cannot tell me to quit

You cannot tell me to watch my health nah nah

You cannot tell me shit

You never dealt with shit so nah nah nah

Pop a pill pop a pill

'Cause I hardly wanna live

Pop a pill get a bottle

So I swallow all my sins

You cannot tell me to quit

You cannot tell me to watch my health nah nah

You cannot tell me shit

You never dealt with shit so nah nah nah

Pop a pill pop a pill

'Cause I hardly wanna live

Pop a pill get a bottle

So I swallow all my sins

You cannot tell me to quit

You cannot tell me to watch my health nah nah

You cannot tell me shit

You never dealt with shit