Real Love Lyrics

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When I reflect I see blood on my face

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Can't comprehend how I got to this place

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Already drowning without a way out

How

Two million leagues

Holes and leaks I've been sprayed with

Down

So far down deep it's astounding I made it around

Was lost at sea 'came a shark and embraced it

Oh wow

Body can't tolerate to go more down

But now I put my head where my feet is and chase it

Devout anhedonic

Kept it flowing since placement

Without

I don't know what I would focus my days on

The clouds were important to distort what I think

But the ground

More endorphins could be stored in its grains

Not without a purpose to journey further

And figure out all potential benefits

Even if it's bullet in mouth

Take me out the planet that damaged me

Development grayed

Someone needs to pay, Is it me?

I'm trying to figure it out

Trying to figure it out

Someone needs to pay, Is it me?

I'm trying to figure it out

Do I need to be dead

I'm trying figure it out

Self indulgent help me only

Never notice no one else

I'm selfish hope is out of focus

Don't I know it's far from love

I swear to god I'm metamorphing

Only human by myself

I'm selfish hope is out of focus

Don't I know it's far from love

Self indulgent help me only

Never notice no one else

I'm selfish hope is out of focus

Don't I know it's far from love

I swear to god I'm metamorphing

Only human by myself

I'm selfish hope is out of focus

Don't I know it's far from love

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I guess my momma left

Because she loved me

I guess my daddy left

Because he loved me

I guess that Amy beat me

'Cause she loved me

I guess her husband beat me

'Cause he loved me

I guess my brother doesn't call

Because he loves me

I guess my sister caught a body

'Cause she loves me

Wants me to write her a letter

Because she loves me

They never loved me

They'll never

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Momma left me 'fore I even knew

What having momma was

She left all of us

One at a time bodies pile up

She wanted a kid and I wanted a mom

But it wasn't on top of her modest plot

But cock was and she went

Hopped on a train right before I was six

And soon made another kid that she kept

Shit

Still making money off me and my brother

The government funds being spent

Shit

Condoms and liquor and cigarettes

To bury her regrets

And keep on digging a hole

Of past indulgences from grandparents

Who put it up deep in her hole

And warped what fairness is

And parents don't mean shit no more

Daddy left me for another kid 'fore my momma did

He was seeking love

At twenty-six he made a heinous choice

By fucking a fifteen year old girl

While married still

Screaming innocence

And his parents believed him but uh

Mountain of evidence put my dad's

Name on the registry

Making my chances of meeting him none

After a couple of years my brother appeared

From my momma's infidelity

Which set off a set of alarms there

In my fathers head

And he got heated as fuck

Wrote her a letter with many grammatical errors

She got it and crumpled it up

I got it a couple of years later and to this day

This is all that I got

So tell me what love is, I don't buy it

It's nothing

I'm done trying to function in the quiet emotions

Imma riot, it's hopeless

Imma die with no notion of what life is with both parents

I got neither

I'm hoping in the next life

That I'm chosen to be safe at night

And have real love