Motivation Lyrics

I got too many things on my mind

And I'm paralyzed when I analyze

And all my anxiety it likes to emphasize all the smallest lies

Things I'd rather hide(ay)

And now when I'm on my own I'm fucking petrified

Scared to go outside I write with a passion but

Don't take my own advice

I ignore my guide stubborn to the signs(ay)

Want to see I need to see but I just keep 'em closed

I learned you can't be disappointed if you never know

Yeah I hate this feeling lack of energy inside

Barely scraping by like an anchor wrapped around and

Weighing on my mind

Fatigued restless eyes a corpse in disguise(ay)

I've overcome a lot but I still fear the unknown

My demons are my family and depression is my home

Yeah write my mind and it's dark my lyrics

Speak volumes the only time in my life where

I'm not wearing costumes Yeah where I can be me

Still I compare myself like two items on a shelf

And mine is hard to sell hell it prolly never will

Got so much potential and I watch it as it wilts

Hills out the window sill see the sun that

I'll never feel I'm so tired of being tired

Feeling bad about feeling bad

My eyes opening is the worst nightmare

I've had The view in my mirror the worst I ever saw

I have got a new daw still with my old jaw ay

We're gonna need a bigger beat ay

I can't multitask so I leave it to the last possible second

I never learn from the past nor from the present

I think too fast and get lost in my thoughts

I think in mass and my flaws come in lots

Hung to relax but I'm caught in the knot

I won't last my own top taking shots till I drop

I'm no match for myself

Fighting not for a belt

Everyday it's my hell

Can't admit I need help

I look up and I yell

Out the pain but it fell

The same feeling I felt

Twice as bad it now dealt

Final blow I can't tell

Know I never was well

But the pain always held

And relief had to meld

Now addicted I melt

In the trauma I dwell

Eyelids open their cell

Demons hear dinner bell

I need some fucking motivation

Taking a pill just for an hour of procrastination

What a terrible constellation

Out of steam

All I need is just some

Motivation God gimme the motivation

Got none of the calm and patience

Caught outta the captivation

I need some fucking motivation

God gimme the motivation

Got none of the calm and patience

Caught outta the captivation

I need some fucking motivation

Please tell me this goes away

I don't wanna have to fight my feelings

Every time I make real things

Walls and ceilings closing in I needed an outlet

But now I'm putting out less

Still I can't sit down rest

Man I'm feeling pretty pathetic

Expecting the worst like I'm really prophetic

Wanna die I fully admit it

If I'm not the one who get the only credit

Skilled with the quill innately poetic

I been feeling nothing lately apathetic

Goals might be purely theoretic

I'm gonna get to work and change the aesthetic

My rhymes are already magnetic

Alphabet's imbedded in deeply genetic

Expert with it skill isn't simply hypothetic

I need a reminder why I'm doing this

Intuitive root of it

Odds against me I fought

In lieu of it using it proving it wasn't luck

I wasn't put here two feet using skill as a crutch

Whenever the weight was too much

Because everything else turned to dust

Supporting beams started sporting rust

Broken was the thing I learned to trust

Those roots now scars went deeper than cuts

Suicidal I've felt more than once

But safety I haven't felt that much

Heart slowing gave me more of a rush

The colder the touch

The darker the brush

Remember the phantom's back and all my work is vantablack

I'm on the attack cause on the other side of the track

A mind that feels cracked and my motivation

Fled the second I left my bed

It's empty in my head

Feels the opposite instead

Volume peaks my ears bled

What's the problem?

I promise no distraction let me solve 'em

I'll say bye to tangents please just off 'em

God I don't believe in but I called him

Pray before my coffin cut the volume

I'll never ask again just stop 'em

Never anything again just stop 'em

I need some fucking motivation

Taking a pill just for an hour of procrastination

What a terrible constellation

Out of steam

All I need is just some

Motivation God gimme the motivation

Got none of the calm and patience

Caught outta the captivation

I need some fucking motivation

God gimme the motivation

Got none of the calm and patience

Caught outta the captivation

I need some fucking motivation