Expectations Lyrics

Look when I don't perform well

I say it's my mental health

All when I know full well

I chose to stay in my cell

People don't expect bills

From just a broken shell

So I just break myself

My health least of my worries

Long as I don't feel hurried

It's bad all of it buried

Way back actions they carried

From past they last

Expectations they were my puppeteer

Control me and then steer

Still sometimes in the driver seat

Willfully I'm impaired

Instincts follow routine deceit

Blissfully unaware that

I will never get to leave

If I put all my effort on display

(No no)

Then what if negatives are all they say?

(No no)

And I'm left feeling hurt

And now ashamed

(No no)

I can't take anymore of these mind games

(No no)

Wonder will I ever change?

(No no)

Won't ever make it through pain

(No no)

Expecting is a good grace

(No no)

I get anxious with expectations

I avoid the perpetuation

Done out of sheer desperation

Then I cease all operations

Fall with relief and act complacent

I don't like expectations

Let me write expectations

I'm under observation

Can't take it expectations

Heart racing expectations

Can't handle expectations

Don't feel well expectations

All mental expectations

My mask fell expectations

Unease dwells expectations

Heart racing expectations

Can't handle expectations

Don't feel well expectations

All mental expectations

My mask fell expectations

Unease dwells expectations

Maybe I tell myself these

Things to justify failure

(Failure)

Because my fear is that

I really am inferior

(Inferior)

So subconsciously I built this

Huge mental barrier

(Barrier)

Hoping it would get easier

With age not scarier

(Scarier)

Played the victim till I was

The victim fairly hurt

And now I'm trying to

Break free take responsibility

It's hard but I'm trying

To change and mentally rearrange

And I know it's no excuse

Trust I will find some use

I have got a lot to prove

Waiting my success is due

Hating? none of that is new

Fading motives to renew

Adding to the list to do

Lacking a lot got to move

Stacking till the plans fall through

Backing nothing else to lose

Rapping to escape the noose

It just tightens never loose

Never loose(Loose)

What do I expect

A pessimistic scent

Coming off my breath

It's pleading for my death

Anxiety it sent what if it's

For the best? it replies it read

I expect nothing less expectations

leave me distressed I am not easily

Impressed I merely observe then digest

Every word then I dissect

What really lurks behind lies said

Eye best and worst of misdirect

I test the nerve see what's lifeless

It did unearth motives silence

I sense your worth with no kindness

My list you earned

I get anxious with expectations

I avoid the perpetuation

Done out of sheer desperation

Then I cease all operations

Fall with relief and act complacent

I don't like expectations

Let me write expectations

I'm under observation

Can't take it expectations

Heart racing expectations

Can't handle expectations

Don't feel well expectations

All mental expectations

My mask fell expectations

Unease dwells expectations

Heart racing expectations

Can't handle expectations

Don't feel well expectations

All mental expectations

My mask fell expectations

Unease dwells expectations

I break your expectations then

You adjust evaluation lens

Come get your calculations in

Don't got a lot of patience since

I got no other options win

Or lose I choose validation

(Validation validation)

But then again inclination falls

In and ends new obsession just

Fittin' in like synonyms my

Location is opposite of optimist

That decision is arch nemesis

Full pessimist

(Always pessimist) I can't be happy

Wish I felt a little better with myself

Expectations of perfect health

Infect my mind with hurt not help

Expecting more and always more

I'm never content it's my cell

Push emotions down just ignore

My demons start to scream and yell

Go fight this never ending war

I can't be happy wish I felt

A little better with myself

I can't be happy wish I felt

A little better with myself

I can't be happy wish I felt

A little better with myself

Can't be happy with myself