Guilt Trip Lyrics

It feels like I'm always at this destination

Voice saying enjoy your reservation

Work for hours then I'm breaking down

Rewrite new sound Not right I drown(sit tight work now)

No I need to rest take a moment clear my head clear my head

Not till quota's met if not you won't hear the end of it

I may be a guest but I know every part of you the best

I can make living hell better not test

I'm in control not a request- I have listened

To you too many times can't tell the truth from the lies

I obsess on the guilt who knew I'd reply

I possess a strong will still not used to this side huh? (Huh)

Me neither that part of me partly new

Comes out when I'm down and out for the count

So loud when amount of doubt starts to mount

I just snap back art I bleed sharply true

My heartbeats proof bring army too

And both your parties lose

Don't pick a fight with me trust me I do it daily

Wouldn't wish my disease on my worst enemy

Only ever get to leave safely when I write these

Songs my demons sleep so I prolong the feast at least

Till I finally can breathe my skill hasn't peaked

Anxious tendencies ADD times 3 that's me

Don't like to travel but when I do it's a guilt trip

Starts to unravel without a clue mines I built trip

My head gets rattled fountain of youth and I spilt it

Stuck in a shackle I see big shoes I can't fill it

Thoughts aren't even helping

But that's what I get in a guilt trip ay

That's what I get in a guilt trip

Guess that's what I get in a guilt trip ay

That's what I get in a guilt trip

Hey look around back to visit

Walls all surround like a prison

Living turned into a sentence since it's the norm

People tell me to look up but all I see is a storm

No sun just war-nings And my heads a mess of bullshit

But I get the horns they come in swarms

Eating away at my mental health till the core

Won't leave of course me and my demons can't

Separate not even with force or a divorce before

I go off the deep end

Keep in mind

You could have died a thousand times

A thousand nights let that sink in

You're so prone to negative thinking

Absorbing everything in sight

Like you cover it ink in light

Haven't recovered a wink in nights

Only see suffering sink in right?

Take a moment you survived

And when half-empty smothering drink in life

Don't like to travel but when I do it's a guilt trip

Starts to unravel without a clue mines I built trip

My head gets rattled fountain of youth and I spilt it

Stuck in a shackle I see big shoes I can't fill it

Thoughts aren't even helping

But that's what I get in a guilt trip ay

That's what I get in a guilt trip

Guess that's what I get in a guilt trip ay

That's what I get in a guilt trip

This my deep end

Face my demons

Guilt is all I'm feeling this is my hell

Good for me hurts me in and of itself

Joy is fleeing peace retreating fully lost my meaning

Trying to heal and growing my own crops in my field

But all of the harvest just makes me ill ay

I cannot stand still(ay)

I wanna pay bills(ay)

Only run on pills(ay)

I Just wanna be killed(ay)

I just wanna be killed(ay)

I just wanna be killed

I just wanna be killed