Extinguish Lyrics

I like to wear my pride on my sleeve(ay)

Nothing gets to me(ay)

I just want relief(they)

Don't know what happens behind the scenes(ay)

Puppet on the strings(ay)

Coping with every(day)

Trying to survive hoping the feelings(change)

But still everything's(stays)

Barely have the means(wait)

What if this is all I'm worth

What if I'm cursed?

What if I all I can do is try other things but none of 'em work

What if it started at birth

What if the first?

Moment I opened my eyes I was destined for an early hearse

I was born in a desert

Dying of thirst

And all the water to keep me alive was removed from the earth

What I am suppose to learn

If life just hurts?

Expecting me to grow thicker skin as my flesh melts from the burns

Like how I am to discern

What's best or worst?

I'm seeking with no sight like trying to read a book with no words

I am battered I am bruised

Body hanging by a noose

Got two paths

One is new

One is bright

One's in ruins

One's like a

Brand new room

The other's

Been consumed I got no-

Thing left to lose

Familiar

One I choose

Close the door

Dark takes root

Choked give the

Chair a boot

But the dark is holding me up

It's keeping my neck just above

Whispers in my ear "You ain't done"

Just let the broken parts fall

Form your new body new jaw

Looking back at my demons

Realize they the ones keeping me dreaming

Giving me meaning never retreating Ay!

Voices in my head the only ones that listen

I used to keep my distance

Now I'm always close for when I need assistance

When I'm alone for instance

I can't open my eyes they say chase my vision

Remind me to keep living

When all I want is to brake they keep me driven

It's dark I found friends hidden

No one understands you like your mirror image

Get along with diminished

No one supports me like my own fucking damage

My flame extinguished

What did I do to deserve this?

Cause if I knew I'd at least have purpose

If I had one wish that would come true

I'd not exist and that's not new

My flame was never lit

Always extinguished

Only extinguished

No light just darkness

Always extinguished

Only extinguished

Flame's an empty pit

I'm extinguished

My light is dim fading in and out of consciousness

I'm cut too thin skin or shell will not persist

My chance is slim sit or stand stance is Everest

If ever it's come to question this

My benefits will start parroting my narrative

Clear it up like Claritin

When you doubt me be all ears

Listen to my auctioneers

Failure is my greatest fear

I'll swerve the odds

Till I cannot

Steer

It's weird how the more caged I am the more free I feel

When I get the weakest I drop my shield

The more hurt I am the more it lessens my need to heal

Like syllables being swapped

And having a flow build

Enough of the self reflection

My toughest the glass dimension

But it's the brain's obsession

Bluffing then adding

The upping of the complexion

My skill added

The double the of the proficient

From the torment and the unfortunate

Came adornments of sorts

It's a lot I'm burdened with

It's burning wit afraid it's permanent

Disorders went ornament

My brain could manage it and owning it

But then reversing it now it's pilot

Got me frightened not stable swerving it

Like turbulence that's simply infinite

When I met it aforementioned

Blocked out vision it's imminent

Danger the effects in they implement

Rapid decent like I took depressants

No affection survives all my toxins

Take fear copied it only to use it

Against what's needed I abandon it

My flame extinguished

What did I do to deserve this?

Cause if I knew I'd at least have purpose

If I had one wish that would come true

I'd not exist and that's not new

My flame was never lit

Always extinguished

Only extinguished

No light just darkness

Always extinguished

Only extinguished

Flame's an empty pit

I'm extinguished

A lot has abandoned me

But not the fear of abandonment

Like invisibility tied me down

With the weight of a planet

It happens so frequently knot gets tighter every minute

I panic looking for boats for

Safety in the middle of the Atlantic

Waves come down I cannot breath

Dread and anxiety compounded

Thrashing around helplessly

Till I find a friend or parent

I'm always at the mercy

Of my distorted environment

Always playing tricks on me

I don't think I'll ever manage it