Silent Sirens Lyrics

I wonder when I'll wake up like oh, this is it

I'm finally happy, I'm finally happy

(I wonder if you'll even wake up at all after this)

These thoughts are nasty, these thoughts are nasty

And if I wouldn't for some reason and God would come down and ask me if I'm finally Happy

I need an answer, the fuck would that be

I don't know how to control my emotions enough to grow into the person that I am but For some reason couldn't show

In my bones I feel I'm living half my life below

Like fuck would be the point of starting now

I don't know

I wish I could be like you, I want in to your fantasy

I don't need to love myself a lot just be a fan of me

Couldn't tell you why I am this way, just don't abandon me

Take all my mistakes and tell me how to separate the insecurities

Can't relate to any of these people, way too sure of me

When I die, please dissect my brain and see the circuitry

Someone prep my soul for surgery

Just search for me

Most of my time is spent running out of it, oh my

Cursed to submerge and not learn from swerves into worse lives

Most of my mind is on the other side of me so why

Would I

Try to find

Why I might

(Stay alive)

I can't move from here until I'm really threatened from the truth, I can't move

I can't move

Stuck or standing still

Who knows

Who cares

I can't move

Keep myself away from

What I know I'm promised

All my thoughts I made them

Talk to me dishonest

What's the cost of reason

So obsessed with solace

I'm like forty days from

Internal silent sirens

Keep myself away from

What I know I'm promised

All my thoughts I made them

Talk to me dishonest

What's the cost of reason

So obsessed with solace

I'm like forty days from

Internal silent sirens

I had that dream again

That one where I was standing on the ledge

Voice in my head

The one that says I should be dead

You live your life just hanging by a thread

Go ahead

(Tear me to shreds)

Man I don't know

I guess I'm both

The person I have been and some controlled

Version you hold

I'm just

Growing and cold

Leave me alone

Chose a

Way to compose

Low and behold

I spent all this time digging though my fucking brain

Yeah well, I have some questions

Time is slipping through my veins

I don't learn my lessons

Why keep myself in pain if I count my blessings

Hide from what I have made, and make no impression

I'm back at the start

Someone tell me how to pick up the parts

And hide behind the art

Vow to remain alarmed

Defense will not disarm

Now, we just live apart

With half a heart

I keep telling myself I will get to where I need to be if I wake up

I keep yelling at myself but I'm asleep cause I'm aware that this shit isn't real and I might have finally had enough

I keep telling the better half of me to define what he wants to do but he speaks Languages I knew I wouldn't too

Fuck do I do

I need peace and quiet

Long enough to hear the way he moves

I just need some time

Long enough to fear the shit I do

I can't move from here until I'm really threatened from the truth

I can't move

Stuck or standing still

Who knows

Who cares

I can't move

Keep myself away from

What I know I'm promised

All my thoughts I made them

Talk to me dishonest

What's the cost of reason

So obsessed with solace

I'm like forty days from

Internal silent sirens

Keep myself away from

What I know I'm promised

All my thoughts I made them

Talk to me dishonest

What's the cost of reason

So obsessed with solace

I'm like forty days from

Internal silent sirens