Who I am (Who I've Been) Lyrics

Exhaustion, creeping in concoctions of all this

Waking up, I feel fucking nauseous

Dreams been obnoxious, count up all the losses

Caution, repeated living thoughtless will never promise

Flawless, watch this colossus, lawless sense of solace eat at the knowledge I'm on this

I'm just being honest, to put it modest I have a problem, I think that maybe I'm an Alcoholic

I can justify a full demolish, take all the smallest parts I want to see and then I polish

Until it's spotless and then abolish what I just know is solid and somehow feeling Faultless in my godlessness

Well, well, wait a minute I think I might tell, hell, the me that's not committing to

Expel or motivate to quitting that's my bell, the fight is never ending

Ooo yeah, got me loving in the wrong damn place

With the wrong damn face

Ooo yeah got me running, but stuck in the same damn space

I can hear 'em coming for the rest of me, I can hear 'em picking up the pace, hey

Oh, yeah that's the promises

Made to the me that I can't find again (I find again)

I walked twelve steps in the wrong direction and then turned around to question how I Got to them

Oh, yeah that's the promised land

Made for the me that I know that I am

I walk twelve steps in the wrong direction and then turned around to question why it's Further, damn

I guess that that's just who I am

I guess that that's just who I've been

Guess that that's just who I am

I guess that that's just who I've been

I guess that that's just who I've been

I guess that that's just who I am

I might be a sucker for the silence

Though loneliness without being alone has turned itself in to a science

I'm just trying to break the habit I have learned through faulty theories that have grown Through this defiance

(Well okay then)

So, what then is the cost

How could I repay myself without repaving roads that not only I've destroyed in passing But have also masked to disappear to keep these other people off, I refuse to cross

Even after my apology to myself, I could never go and get what I lost

Wanted a remedy when what I really needed was a fucking solution

I vilify me to convince myself I'm good with the cause

Involved with the way I turn the part of me on

To believe in all of the fucking things I say that are wrong

But I make mistakes, I am just a human being after all

And yet it takes all of me to really know that at all, well

Ooo yeah, got me loving in the wrong damn place

With the wrong damn face

Ooo yeah got me running, but stuck in the same damn space

I can hear 'em coming for the rest of me, I can hear 'em picking up the pace, hey

Oh, yeah that's the promises

Made to the me that I can't find again (I find again)

I walked twelve steps in the wrong direction and then turned around to question how I Got to them

Oh, yeah that's the promised land

Made for the me that I know that I am

I walk twelve steps in the wrong direction and then turned around to question why it's Further, damn

I guess that that's just who I am

I guess that that's just who I've been

Guess that that's just who I am

I guess that that's just who I've been

I guess that that's just who I've been

I guess that that's just who I am

(I guess that that's just who I've been

I guess that that's just who I am)