After All Lyrics

(You know, when they do major surgery

They cool the body down 'till it's almost dead

Why

I'm not sure, darling

I believe it forces the circulation to the area they're working on

Oh, God, I would hate feeling in the cold like that

I tried to tell him, you know as my mind

That it's okay to die

I mean, if he want's to

I only want him to live if he wants to)

This is the last track that I wrote for this album because I keep prolonging the inevitable

This is the fast track, had I hoped for this outcome but I breathe strong and try and remain impenetrable

I need intelligible exceptional lines for the sum of all these impressionable efforts exiting full of venom and measurable stress

Less I forget how to let death rest, I'm amiss and I miss all the shit that I left hexed

Man when I get to everybody I'm always an effort that I'm not

I'm always costing the lot for the bag from the spot

I'm confident and locked

Standing still and I'm struck

Hand what I feel to the middle finger of fucked

I don't ever get a fucking chance to explain what I've been landing

I'm just a guy who fell down from the sky with a rip cord stuck to a slut

I've reserved a spot for you in place of her but I'm afraid that it won't be enough

I'm one hell of guy to find whenever the "why" directs to "mine"

But I'm a demise if in it I mind whatever the mind reflects to try

Give it a minute to give it a minimum limited eye to lie to fly

I'm out of all my minimal slights, I'm me, myself and when I'm high

And if I don't come back, I'm sorry I don't mean to be that guy

Confused about the meaning of a life I don't derive

Never get to see it I don't think I can supply

The way you needed me to be, I'm am lost inside of my mind

I think that I'm made of all my fears

I might not be good for you my dear

I am just the way I was

You are just the same my love

Guilt belongs to none of us

I think you should go before it's clear

No one needs to know that you were here

I won't be around forever

I won't stand to see you fall

I just can't see us together after all

After all

I can't deny I'm alive

But I can't subside I just strike

When I'm triggered, give me that mic

When I figure I need to write

What about all of these rhymes

I don't know how to define

I fucking break the table through the pen I shove through the lines

These thoughts are torturing me

I know you think it's only music

But I make these for you because I'm trying to get fucking through this

I'm asking for help I am stuck in the speakers

I'm trapped in a hell and I need someone to listen to me not just hear me, the fear is

So fucking real I am dying I'm here and nowhere is safe from the thoughts that creep in and crack the massive safe that I made

All of my definitions of whoever the fuck I'm talking about consistent with whatever ex reminds me of what I'm facing

I just keep on trying to find the way but I keep getting shot down by the fate I went and Made

I don't believe in this I cannot retrieve the man I am, it's insane

I'm lost up in the lines I write to try and comprehend for my sake

I don't see the way to freedom I just see the way to death

Don't breathe a fucking word unless I know it's from my head

I don't think I can explain the way I am, I think I left

I can't blame a person other than the one that's made the bed

I am stuck here in the keyboard and the pen I use to mend

I hope one day someone just comes to free me from the bend

I can't find a single reason to allow myself some credit

I just wake up and I do this, I am only what I said

I think that I'm made of all my fears

I might not be good for you my dear

I am just the way I was

You are just the same my love

Guilt belongs to none of us

I think you should go before it's clear

No one needs to know that you were here

I won't be around forever

I won't stand to see you fall

I just can't see us together after all

After all

(There's an imaginary line out there between right and wrong, good and evil

You know that it's just this, wild drug, you know, craze whatever

It's the most devastating drug that we've seen in the 20th century

Oh, God it's good to hear your voice

Yeah, you too

So, how are things going

Uh, well it's hard to tell you know, with all the drugs and stuff

Yeah, well that's normal, no, no it is

It'll be a few days before it wears off)