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I'm convinced I'm smart enough to think my way out of all of my problems

But I'll admit I'm way too far away to really know how I would solve 'em

I have done a lot of wrongs and I want to know how to absolve them

I just need to find a way to be okay with how I have evolved them

I keep reminiscing 'bout the time we spent together

Give me peace of mind

I feel guilty cause I'm always thinking of you but, who the fuck am I

I'm

Just the type to get infatuated to the same degree I'm insecure, hi

I'm someone who needs to get inebriated just to deal with life

Can't get out my head, all of my regrets sleep with me in bed, I'm broken

I just play pretend, I'm fucking obsessed, I cannot reset, I'm frozen

What is really left when you lose yourself

Are you really fucking hopeless

Or do you have to shed, whatever's left, to become you in wholeness

I just sit here waiting on the moment I convince myself I'm unapologetic

I just sit here hoping my emotions get in check and don't turn in to epidemics

I just want to be normal

I just want to get rid of the pressure

I just want breathe

I just want to be okay

I just want to be better

I just want to be, I just want to be, I just want to be better

I just want to be, I just want to be, I just want to be better

I've been living in the past

I keep going back

Just to check on my mistakes

All I ever learned from 'em was that I have never been okay with change

I think I've developed more than a disorder I think I've developed like a curse

Cause when I really dig deep and try and find me, it just makes it worse

People tell me that I have to let them in

But the more I try the more I wouldn't

Always over analyzing so as far as socializing, honestly, I really fucking shouldn't

I just see the world a little differently

But I'm the one telling myself I couldn't

If what I am is what I think then what I will become is only how I tweak my looking

I see bright stars

I see dark tunnels

I see good things underneath the rubble

And I fight hard

To be right, God

If I'm fucking up just tell me I'm in trouble

I just sit at bars

White knuckles

And this tight jaw

Trying not to buckle under all the shit I think about

I can't see straight until I'm only seeing double

Set myself up every day to fail because I go into this way too damn protected

Help me learn my lessons

I can't count my blessings

Without these projections

You call it depression, I call that subjective

Keep 'em fucking coming 'till I finally get this figured out

I will be here until the day my thoughts create a way to heal a part of me I haven't found

I just sit here waiting on the moment I convince myself I'm unapologetic

I just sit here hoping my emotions get in check and don't turn in to epidemics

I just want to be normal

I just want to get rid of the pressure

I just want breathe

I just want to be okay

I just want to be better

I just want to be, I just want to be, I just want to be better

I just want to be, I just want to be, I just want to be better