Meh Lyrics

I interrupt this program to tell y'all

That I'm trying my best

And sometimes I feel like my best isn't good enough

It never is

But I'm trying

I am

And I'll work through that

For us and for me

Yeah this is my mind and entire heart

I just had to push this shit to push this shit to push to start

And every time you called me lazy swear that I was going hard

And I would cut off my entire leg to prove you fuckers wrong

My friends say I don't go out I was focused in on focusing

I told them I made progress hope you noticed it I'm closing in

I want to be the one that make it out and let them know shit

That place that where I'm from they ain't been hoping it I'm going in

Yeah

Yeah they hoping I get caught up in a loop

If I'm being honest here's the fucking truth

I'm just so scared to fucking lose

My whole life I feel like gotta prove

Not to you but to my fucking self

Every time I talk about my future I get overwhelmed

People around me care for me and I would still not ask for help

I would rather put my mind through struggle put my shit through hell

Yeah I know it's not okay okay okay

Yeah I know it's not okay okay okay

Keep saying I'ma fix this shit okay okay

But not today today

Today today

Day to day and day to day

I feel like I would fadeaway

And fadeaway

I feel like I die fatally

I hope that I erase away

I hope that I just made your day

And made a way

Cause honestly my goal in this shit is just go and pave a way

I'm just hoping that you understand it

Cause my whole life I've been abandoned

Yeah might have to turn into a bandit

Yeah my mind is beat up shit is damaged

Yeah you know I'm northside shit preoccupied

And opposites

I'm positive

That my mind wants the opposite

But my heart been a stopping it

I swear that this ain't cocky shit

They say that this shit crock of shit

A crock of shit

I swear that I am popping it

Woah

Yeah my highs and my lows

I try to go and stop

I'm on go

Yeah all these problems weighing on my brain

Yeah I don't even know what to think

Yeah I'm feeling like I'm going insane

Ain't stop me before ain't gonna stop me now

I'm the only person that can hold me down

Come and see me at a show I be showing out

I was going light speed but now I'm slowing down

Yeah I start to trust the process and I wonder how

How I got to feel this feeling that I'm feeling now

I'm about to go a hundred to a hundred thou