ocho Lyrics

Done yet?

Done of scheming up the ways to make me upset

Make it harder than it is

This honest as I get cuz I couldn't keep it in

I'm on my own

Is this what I need? What's good for me?

I hated pills so I mixed em' with some applesauce

So don't leave, memories not enough

I see your face in the mirror, I see your face when my eyes shut

Aye

Trickle like a raindrop

Top to the bottom to the roots don't stop

This a cycle, pop a quarter, need 30 minutes top

Need a breather need inhaler

No retry i gotta live with my failure (Okay)

Empty space to fill, this a glass half empty

I was looking for the bright side sun start setting

Door closed start confessing

Candles blown windows open

Got a suit you start dressing, pass down wasn't blessing

Wasn't letting no one in, I was dealing with myself

I was too far to be felt

Wasn't crying for no help

Heard them crying on the phone, can't save my tears for someone else

And I hope you find your way home

Cuz we can't find no one else

Is this what I need? What's good for me?

These days my hands so cold I can hear my heart bleed

Please don't leave

Memories not enough

I gotta to squint to see your face, keep you in mind when my eyes shut

When my eyes shut, how did you find love?

What did you think of who I was, where did you hope I'd end up

These memories not enough

So many plans undone

So many words unsung

Saw you in my dreams it felt just real enough for me

Open real estate for me, old memories they tend to creep

Baby steps, the floor creak, walls talk, what they see?

Sharpie marks how tall, old baby pictures of me

Family photos how did we, come together with our flaws

Worked so hard to get this far, postcards to where we are

You over there, Arkansas, was over Bakersfield we gone

This good for us, this good for me, but the adjustment so hard

Was making plans they fall in place, switching summers from each place

Switching planes, we rearrange to make our life's work out this way

Short visits, then a gap

All the problems start to stack

How did I grow up so fast

How come our time didn't last

But I got negative space

I got such a bitter taste

Mixed the pills with the applesauce

I can't sugar coat the pain

These feelings never go away (Never, never, never)

I really wish you could've stayed

A little longer

I Fell down, my first kiss was with the dirt

That's when I really knew my worth, that's when I knew it could get worse

I got a glimpse of my future, I really hope it doesn't hurt

Really hope I make something out of the work you put in

I Don't deserve what I got, fam sacrificed ain't forgot

But why me, I got this chance, I had the seed I let it rot

I lost my shine, I lost my glow, I lost the people I know

I lost more, I lost you, you lost the chance to see me grow

Make you proud was not enough, cuz I knew I could do better

You taught me how to be tough, so I still try to hold together

Now the pressure bringing heat my glue melting at my feet

Hold me down, I need you now, this ain't the time for you to leave

I ain't got time for all these feelings, life keep moving ain't no breaks

Heard this life is what you make, so imma give what I take

The foundation you laid is the home where I lay

The warmth of that hug in my heart where it stay

I'm okay

The last words we exchanged, in my brain on replay

I think when I get my chance, what exactly I'll say

If we ever meet again, I really hope one day

So forever stay the same please remember my name

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