Sad Inside Lyrics

I've gotta stop trying to be someone else

All that is probably bad for my health

Sitting here thinking I'm good enough's slowly been killing me draining me giving me hell

How can I try to be somebody else

All I know is that I'm mad at myself 'cause everyone else is accomplishing things and I'm tryna be social

But nothing can help

I don't assume I'm in need of a pill but if it'll change me I think that I might

I can't even look at myself in the eyes

I'm scared my reflection might tell me I'm fine

This is a problem for people with everything

All of my worries are narrow I know

But I know that there are some people like me who've been driven insane cause they're in the same boat

Probably they even wrote the same note

Probably we're on the very same page

'Probably' causes the probable cause that I'm probably causing this very emotion

I'm hoping the reason for this has an answer that one day I'll be in the seat I can solve it

I see the solution they tell me it's simple

I live with a curse and I know what to call it

I play the victim blame myself fake morale hate the system chase around the idea of ideas not being hostile

Ponder the impossible I'm tryna make it out but I never had luck

I'm never giving up 'cause I never had a choice

Yeah I never chose life but if imma stay living then I'm gonna do it my way

When people looking me sideways I say

All clowns are sad inside I'm told

I do this for the ones who feel alone

Never let your inner voices crush you

Live your life for all the ones who love you

Live your life for all the ones who love you

Everybody's got something to run from

I just hope I got someone to run to

Anxiety amplifies everything and I don't even have the worst if it

The only emotion I know of that kills you but actually has a few perks

Introspection is a lesson learned almost every single time I get to thinking

I humble myself when I get to drinking 'cause I worry bout everything I've been mixing

I don't drink away the thoughts of second guessing 'cause nothing gets rid of those

At a point in my life I've been dying to know if the state of my sanity's critical

I can't even assume what I'm saying is really me or the depth of my lyrics is really deep

I don't know if I'm actually feeling me or the man in the mirror is really me

I don't know if I'm rambling or if the people around me'll actually hear it

It seems like the closer I got to my graduation I was losing track of those I love the dearest

I'm tired of telling myself I'm okay

Tired of pushing my loved ones away

I know it's okay to cry but wouldn't have tears in my eyes if I tried

So wait what in the world is my problem

I feel I can only express it through poetry

Nobody know's it until they hear vocally

Now they're afraid that the jokes are imploding me

All clowns are sad inside I'm told

I do this for the ones who feel alone

Never let your inner voices crush you

Live your life for all the ones who love you

Live your life for all the ones who love you

Everybody's got something to run from

I just hope I got someone to run to

All clowns are sad inside I'm told

I do this for the ones who feel alone

Never let your inner voices crush you

Live your life for all the ones who love you

Live your life for all the ones who love you

Everybody's got something to run from

I just hope I got someone to run to