Addicted Lyrics

I'm addicted to the ways that you hurt me

Cursed me with love

A love I never wanted to lose

Now I'm stuck with it

Lovestruck with it

Confused nights with days and now I'm dazed and confused

It hurts to say sorry

But you don't even have to apologize to get me to calm down

All I need is the thought that you are not fine

I hope all is well even though you're not mine

'Cause every other day everywhere I look

Anytime I'm alone it's never safe

It's not a feeling I'd wish on my worst enemy

But honestly you wouldn't last a second in my place

So it's settled

I'm stronger than I've ever been because of you

I'm sorry for the times you wanted me there just to comfort you

I'm sorry for the fact that I would ever fall in love with you

I'm sorry that I'm screaming out my feelings because I'm done with you

I'm dumb enough to let it interfere with me

You appear to be coming out of this perfectly

I start to take it personal when moving on is something you were ready for

I was wrong for being ready for more

I second guess 'cause most of the time I'm not correct

I fully devoted all my feelings and my emotions

And my time and energy upsetting when it's a waste

'Cause I've given it all away with nothing to gain

The pain heals but never goes away

It's permanent

Human development occurs in certain conditions

I'd be okay if I never run into her again

But if I did I'd be immersed in addiction

I'm learning everything about me

And what it means to be completely overrun with feeling weak

Playing my strengths

Taking what I love to the bank

I'm stuck in my brain and it's feeding into sleeplessness

I don't know what day of the week it is

All I know is that I'm missing out

I'm giving out

I'm skipping town to lay in bed and pray I'm headed down a better road

In the morning I hope the sun does show

And does glow with the radiance I've patiently waited for

A happy me is undebatably amazing and a long time coming but I'm easily mistakable

And busy feeling sorry for myself

None of these problems are the property of anybody else

I don't want em to be

I don't wanna talk about it

I just wanna get the weight off my chest

It's fueled by emotion anger and jealousy

How could I let a potential lover get the best of me

How could I neglect all the time I didn't invest in me

Especially when I am the only person who should question me