I got a lot on my chest

I got my life in a mess

I broke the promises, agreements thats supposed to be kept

I keep myself awake, whenever they got stories to tell

Cause for a fact, I know that sleep is the cousin of death

Isn't much to be said, you know already the gist

Bottled up all these emotions, by clenching my fist

Wanna punch through the wall, to put myself back at ease

Wanna get lost in the sauce, til I cant stand on my feet

Sometimes, it doesnt hurt to get your body wasted

To forget the burden of being grown ups

It doesn't even matter if we chug so many cases

If we cannot take it, we can all throw up

Very simple way of releasing my emotions

I'm swimming in the muddy muddy oceans

It would turn to red if, i try to stop my motions

Would it cause a commotion

How many more shots would it take to ease the pain

I am sorry to myself that went hard in the paint

Yeah, i used to

They loved me, yeah they used to

I just fucked it that up one time, they be like who you

I took accountability, and i owned it up

But when i try to hit the line, they all be hanging up

Made myself so desperate, i been banging through the door

Tryna prove, that i aint really rotten to the core

Do i need to beg for more

Do i need to beg for mercy

Alotta questions in my mind, it makes me really thirsty

I dont give a damn, if my liver started bursting

I dont give a damn, if they even tryna curse me

Ya heard me

One shot, two shot, three shot, four

Steadily I'm walkin to the basement floor

Four shot, three shot, two shot, one

I opened up the closet and i grabbed the shotgun

Is it the way to release all my emotions

I'm swimming in the muddy muddy ocean

It would turn to red, if i dont supress my motions

It would cause a commotion

As I'm about to pull the trigger like nirvana boy

Ive been hearing something strange, made me paranoid

The bottom door went 180 degrees

I was greeted by my four-legged buddy with a toy in his teeth

Man, I took another sip

I'm about to lose my grip

Thought that everybody left me in the middle of the trip

As he looked me in the eye

I can't help but not to cry

Guess I'm just super suicidal

But I'm so afraid to die

Im just super suicidal

But im so afraid to die

Im just super suicidal

But im so afraid to die

Im just super suicidal

Im just super suicidal

Im just super suicidal

But im so afraid to die

Im just super suicidal

But im so afraid to die

Im super suicidal

But im so afraid to die

Im just super suicidal

Im just super suicidal

Im just super suicidal

But im so afraid to die