Hopeless Lyrics

It's about 10 O clock thinkin' sittin' in the dark

Of how many times my hopes ripped apart

Pondering ideal thoughts something pleasant

Got 2 bucks to my name livin' like a peasant

Still thinkin' of my old unreached dreams

Falling slow but deeper I can only scream

Misunderstood by whoever I speak to

Hope is something I no longer seek through

My dream is crushing but I keep bustin'

I beat myself in the head as I'm cussin'

When hope builds & flies all around

It falls from the sky dead on the ground

Shattered hopes & dreams by the slicer

For every time I thought things would get nicer

Worried thoughts run all through my head

I wanna keep it silent & cool but then I'd have to pretend

Every time I hope

It brings me hurt

'Cause every time I do it

It becomes cursed

Everyone calls me negative 'cause I have no faith

What's faith? I hoped like you said it never went your way

It's like firing a gun straight up to the sky

& watching the bullet land straight in my eye

I prepare for & expect the worst

Nowadays that's the way I gotta be

'Cause things are ugly been too much to see

My name ain't fiction it's maniacal V

& this ain't a fairytale it's l-i-f-e

I don't need to have my heart set on something I need

I lost too much depending on hope

It broke me for years till I slashed it's throat

It's something that's a fantasy never to rely on

That's a cloud that I'm done trying to fly on

I make things happen if it's in my control

But if it's not I just let things roll

All the lies all the fallbacks & disappointment

Gave me wounds & giving up is the best ointment

I don't go for a tease I let it come to me

'Cause hope is a prayer for a want or a need

I don't look forward I just look as it comes

I just deal with it & stay real with it

Faithless after all the stabs & let downs

Think I'm bullshittin'? Go ahead & place your bet down

For so long I've tried to make things happen

By the time I got close it was already crappin'

I'm not here trying to tell you to quit

But as for me hope's just a bitch

So I let things be & see what they show

Never again will I believe in hope

No NEVER again will I believe in hope