Shadow Lyrics

My past keeps coming back, back like a boomerang

Every time I turn around, got a smile on it’s face

Shows me what I’m worth, like I’m dirt on the holidays

Ain’t no one calling me, ain’t no one proud of me

Grew up fucked up, and that’s why they doubted me

Bet that now you see, let me tell you honestly

Fuck all that modesty, pain beat it out of me

Know it’s probably sad to see but this what I had to be

I walk around like I got a chip on my shoulder

Can’t say I’m thrilled while carrying this boulder

Got a lot heavier the more I got older

No one ever said let me carry it for ya

Never trusted anyone, full of paranoia

Dwell on the past, it sure will destroy ya

You’ll never be happy, and no one will enjoy ya

They’ll try to stay away and hopefully avoid ya

When growing up this what I had to learn

No one ever really cared no one had concerns

No one ever shared so I never had a turn

Everything I really wanted I had to earn

It is what it is, and no one gave a shit

Always been like this, like why do I exist

Am I taking up space, like what’s the point of it

I’m too scared to die, but I don’t want to live

My shadow follows me around, everywhere in every town

Ever since I was a child, think it’s funny how

It’s always reminding me, of the pain that I caused

All the love that was lost, think I got that across

Doesn’t matter anyways, I’ll never have better days

Going through many names, the ones that played many games

Are fucking kidding me, don’t you know my history

Will you be missing me, let me guess you’ll just be

Ignoring me just because I’m a little different

Ask anyone they’ll never admit it

Just my luck you probably still don’t get it

Trapped in these bars like a life long sentence

What did I do to deserve all this

I care for everyone it makes no sense

It weighs on my brain that’s why I’m so tensed

Imma get through it all, at all my expense

Think I’ll be gone just like that

I’ll never go away, that’s why your still attached

Forsaken Prophet, you remember that track

I told your stupid ass that I’ll be right back

Shut your fuckin mouth, you don’t know a damn thing

Getting it off my chest I’m just ranting

Remember when they said don’t act like him

It would hurt you so bad, while they’re laughing

Yea I do what’s your point, cause you didn’t have a choice

You didn’t have a voice, didn’t have any toys

You was just a nobody, now you make a lot of noise

What if you run into them, you gon be a little boy

Fuck no, I’m gonna load up the chopper

Shoot every feeling that makes me stop it

Give it all I got for when I sock’em

I’ll show you what nothing does, it’s ironic

Who’s the guy that girls want, well not him

Who’s the guy that got the crowd, with them nodding

Who’s the guy with a dad, but nothing he taught him

I’m pretty sad but pretty glad it all be forgotten

Cold wind blows when they say my name

Ice cold blood runs through my veins

You might be my shadow but you follow me

Your just a silhouette, of what not to be

Dark and possessive, ask myself the question

Is this really destined, I need a suggestion

Don’t know where to turn in need of direction

Blurred up vision, had to changed my perception

It just feels like I’m walking on this road

No one but myself just me all alone

Got no time to stop, no time to say hello

May to stop to rest, but then I gotta go

For the ones that don’t know me I’m nothing but a joke

They laugh in my face like I don’t have a soul

I feel like a mistake, I’m always feeling low

Still feel like a kid, who never got to grow

I’m just walking till I fall to the ground

Can’t get up, so I just stay down

Slowly close my eyes, and I don’t hear a sound

Finally rest to lay, I’m nowhere to be found

The lonely warrior no longer has to battle

Always in the deep end, never in the shallows

Hard to be a king, with no one in the castle

Only one that stuck with me is my shadow

The images that I paint are pretty vivid

That’s only because I’m the one who lived it

I did what I did cause I don’t like restriction

Do what I can to change my position

I speak for anyone that really wants to listen

You can be at your lowest and be driven

I’ll try to shine light in this weather that is frigid

And show an escape route out of this prison